For All The Right Reasons - Chapter 2
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learashiPairing: Sakumoto
Rating: This chapter NC-17
Genre: m-preg, romance, au
Disclaimer: This is entirely fiction, and couldn’t exist anywhere else but in my head.
Summary: Sakurai Sho has always achieved everything he's ever wanted in his successful business life. Why is it so different in his personal life? Sho has no idea that anything is even wrong with his marriage until he comes home one night and finds his young husband gone. Will he be able to find Jun and make things right between them again?
Previously: CH 1
Jun was only twelve when he laid eyes on Sakurai Sho for the first time.
His older brother Shun brought a gaggle of his new friends from university home with him. A bunch of nineteen year-olds with dyed hair and piercings clattered into the house talking and laughing loudly, causing Jun to shrink into himself and hide away from their sight.
He had run into one of them when he was quietly making his way to the bathroom, hoping to escape their notice. He'd been tormented by some of his brother's high school friends once before a few years earlier and he had no wish whatsoever to repeat the experience.
Unfortunately it was in the literal sense that he ran into the older guy, bouncing off a solidly muscular body and ricocheting onto the hard tiled floor.
A surprisingly soft and deep voice came from the guy with the blonde hair and the piercing in the lobe of his left ear.
"Are you ok? No damage done?" he asked as he held out his hand, offering to help Jun up. But it was all too embarrassing for Jun as he squeaked and fled to the bathroom, locking himself in and leaning his back against the door as his heart raced.
Shun laughed about it later and asked Jun what he'd done to his friend Sho, who had enquired about his 'cute' little brother's welfare earlier in the day.
Jun didn't see Sho again until he turned eighteen and his parents set out on a mission to find a suitable husband for their younger son who had unexpectedly turned out to be a Carrier – a male able to bear children; the first one in their family for generations.
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Jun had been horrified when the test confirmed that he was a Carrier. All boys were tested when they turned sixteen and he had been the only one in his year to return a positive result. His parents and brother had tried not to express their confusion and dismay with varying degrees of success.
Aiba's family on the other hand had been pinning their hopes on their only son being a Carrier. They had already spent as much as they could afford to send him to the private boarding school. There has always been a Carrier in each generation of their family and they had pinned their hopes on Aiba's test coming back positive.
His attendance at the school had put Aiba in the right circles to find himself a husband from a rich family, who would hopefully be able and willing to afford to pay for his further education. Aiba had always wanted to be a doctor for as long as he could remember, but the expense of it would be a financial stress too large for his family to bear without outside assistance.
As a direct result of his test being negative Aiba had switched his ambition to becoming a nurse instead. He figured that he could always study as a doctor later on when he'd qualified and worked for a few years.
When he and Jun discussed it later that night back in their shared room, Aiba had confessed his relief at not being a Carrier. He had never felt the slightest of desires for men and had been terrified at the prospect of being stuck with one for the rest of his life merely because of an ability to bear children.
Jun had known from a fairly young age that he was attracted to males and would have been happy to freely choose a boyfriend for himself and enjoy himself for a few years before even thinking of settling down. The confirmation that he was a Carrier had removed that possibility. His parents had a responsibility under the current laws to ensure that he was married to a suitable man by his twentieth birthday. Falling fertility rates in women had led to Carriers becoming a valuable commodity amongst the richest of families eager to ensure their line of succession; especially those with eldest sons who were only interested in their own gender. These powerful families were also the lawmakers, and so it had come about that choice of partner had effectively been taken out of the Carriers' hands.
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"Jun, please be on your best behaviour this time. It's very important for your future," Jun's mother pleaded with her son as she placed his cleaned and ironed clothes on his bed.
As soon as Jun graduated from high school he had parted ways with Aiba, who had gained entry to a university located four hours away. Jun was not so lucky; his grades at school had plummeted after his diagnosis. There had seemed little point to him studying when his future was already mapped out for him.
He had already been introduced to three potential suitors, all of whom had turned out to be completely wrong for him. The first man had been middle-aged at best, and had been previously married to a woman who had failed to bear children. The second had talked about having enough children to form a football team, which had even made Jun's parents want to flee halfway through the meeting. The last had been even worse, forcing Jun to spend most of the evening fending off his groping hands. Even though he was basically being forced into a modern day equivalent of an arranged marriage, it was entirely up to Jun whether to accept the offer or not.
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The last thing that Jun expected when he entered the restaurant behind his parents was the sound of a familiar deep voice. His heart raced as he arrived at the table where his brother Shun was already seated with a middle-aged couple and his latest potential suitor.
The years fell away and Jun was suddenly once again a shy twelve-year-old falling down in the hallway.
It was Sakurai Sho, six years older and even more handsome. The bleached hair and piercing were gone, replaced by smooth dark hair cut elegantly around his face. He was wearing a pair of designer glasses and what was also definitely a designer suit.
Jun glared at Shun, outraged that he hadn't thought to warn him that it was Sho that he was meeting. Shun winked back and gave a subtle thumbs-up gesture.
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Jun had no idea what he ate or anyone said throughout the elaborate meal. All Jun remembered afterwards were Sho's intensely dark eyes that remained fixed in his direction the entire time.
After dessert, but before the coffee was served, Sho invited him to get a breath of air on the balcony. Jun hesitated, but Shun accepted for him and practically shoved the pair of them out of the dining room, earning himself a glare from Sho on the way out.
"I'm sorry that I couldn't speak to you before now, but it is frowned upon to contact each other directly until our parents have formally met," Sho began, his hands fidgeting nervously.
"Why me?" Jun was curious to know. He'd seen Sho at a distance at Shun's university graduation but not since.
"I’m afraid you'll think I'm a creep," Sho replied, blushing slightly. "I remembered how cute you were when you were younger, and when Shun told me about you being a Carrier and showed me your photo, I really wanted to see if there could be something between us."
"Only a little creepy, and I must remember to kill my brother later," Jun replied with a smile.
"So do I have your permission to date you with a view to marriage?" Sho was suddenly awkwardly formal.
Jun didn't even hesitate for a second; he’d always harboured a crush on his brother’s friend ever since their meeting when he was only twelve. "Yes please."
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On Jun's nineteenth birthday they became engaged.
Sho's formal proposal at a dinner attended by both sets of parents was followed up by a much less formal proposal in the back seat of his convertible as he and Jun sat and looked at the stars.
Even though they were now formally engaged, Jun would remain a virgin until is wedding night. Sho maintained that it was improper to have sex before marriage. He was afraid of the impact that the scandal would have on the family business groups if he got Jun pregnant before the wedding.
At twenty-six Sho was the youngest CEO in the conglomerate and he was determined to validate his father's belief in him.
"Are you sure about this?" Sho knew that the seven year age gap might prove to be a problem in the future and he didn't want to force Jun into something against his will.
"Do you love me?" Jun asked quietly, lightly touching the gold locket hanging around his neck that had been an engagement present from Sho.
"Of course. You are everything I've always wished for," Sho replied, clasping Jun's hand in his own.
"Say the words, or it doesn't count."
"I. Love. You." Sho replied, punctuating his words with light pecks on the tip of Jun's nose.
Jun laughed and climbed onto Sho lap, rubbing up against him like an oversized cat. "I am completely sure. I want to spend the rest of my life with you and no one else."
"Now you say the words," Sho replied, pulling Jun flush against his body.
"I. Love. You." Jun said, kissing Sho's red lips.
Sho's eyes grew dark as he kissed Jun in return, sliding his tongue between his parted lips as Jun rubbed his cock against his own.
"J-Jun, we should stop," Sho gasped soon after as he felt his member stiffen in response to Jun's motions.
"Can't," Jun panted as he rutted against Sho's crotch, his own cock just as hard.
"Wait," Sho quickly unzipped his fly, freeing his thick erection, doing the same a moment later for Jun's.
Jun gasped as the cool night air met with his heated flesh. His cock was the same length as Sho's but not quite as thick. Even though they had been dating for a year, they had never yet seen each other naked.
Sho shifted Jun slightly on his lap so that their exposed members rubbed against each other. Jun cried out at the sensation as Sho took both of their cocks in his hand and began to stroke them. He encouraged Jun to do the same and soon they were rocking against their joined hands, kissing desperately as they chased their orgasms.
They came almost simultaneously; a wave of hot liquid gushing over their hands as they cried out into each other's mouths.
Sho laughed ruefully at the sticky wet patches on his suit as he found a packet of wipes in the pocket on the back of the seat behind Jun. Sho wiped his fingers clean before carefully sliding Jun off his lap and onto the seat beside him, where he slumped into a boneless heap leaning heavily against his side.
"A little help here," Sho said as he tried to clean off Jun as well, but it was difficult as he tried to support his full weight at the same time.
"Nope, too sleepy." Jun grumbled.
"Come on Sleeping Beauty. I have to get you home before Shun comes looking to kick my ass." Sho finally managed to get Jun dressed decently and sitting upright.
"Fine. But can I sleep on the way home?" Jun asked with a barely concealed yawn.
"Anything you want, my Beauty," Sho replied with an indulgent smile.
"If you keep calling me that, this will turn out to possibly be the shortest engagement in history," Jun mumbled as he allowed Sho to steer him towards the front passenger seat.
"Anything you say...my Beauty," Sho called out as he ducked away from Jun's swinging hand and ran round to the comparative safety of the far side of the car.
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The lavish but elegant wedding was held a week after Jun turned twenty.
Simple gold bands glittered on their fingers as Sho danced Jun around in a slow circle on the dance floor surrounded by well-wishers.
Most of the guests were business associates of Sakurai Industries, with a few of Jun's relatives standing nervously around the edges of the ballroom in one of the hotels owned by the Sakurai family.
To Jun's great joy, Aiba had arrived after dinner on the day of his birthday, laden down with an armful of plastic bags and holding his suit bag clenched between his teeth.
After hastily depositing his belongings in the smallest spare room Aiba rushed straight to Jun's bedroom.
He tossed an enormous pile of assorted snacks and a small cooler containing a six pack of cold beer onto the middle of the bed, throwing himself down straight afterwards. He handed Jun a messily wrapped gift and began to fire questions at his friend.
"So, does he have an enormous dick?"
"Aiba!" Jun felt his face turning red.
"I'll take that as a yes then. So does he know how to put it to good use?"
"We...we haven't...you know...yet."
"Even after two years? You must have done something!"
"None of your business," Jun replied, remembering the sensation of Sho's lips wrapped around his cock earlier in the day. They had done everything but full penetrative intercourse over the past few months.
"But I tell you about my sex life all the time," Aiba protested.
"Yes. You do. Even after I repeatedly tell you to shut up," Jun complained.
"But seriously, are you happy about this?"
"I don't exactly have a choice," Jun replied, refusing Aiba's proffered cheesy chips, but accepting the beer he held out in his other hand. "But in truth, he is a good man and we love each other."
Admittedly Sho had only seen him once a fortnight recently as work concerns became more pressing, but Jun felt that it would be different once they were married. Surely once they were sharing a house and a bed he would be able to see Sho whenever he pleased.
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Jun laughed as Sho carried him princess style into the honeymoon suite on the top floor of the same hotel that the reception had been held in. It seemed as if the whole of Tokyo could be seen from the floor to ceiling windows. They had three nights of indulgent luxury to enjoy before Sho took Jun back to the small house that his parents had bought them as a wedding present. Sho's mother had reassured Jun that he would love the furnishings that she had picked out.
Sho had offered to take Jun somewhere exotic for an extended honeymoon later in the year, during the slower time for business. Jun had readily agreed; picturing escaping winter and laying on an exotic beach instead, making love on the warm sand under a tropical moon.
Jun and Sho had agreed that Jun would take birth control for the first year of their marriage. They wanted to be able to learn to live together before bringing the stress of a baby into their lives. Jun had begun taking the injections three months before the wedding to make sure that it was effective. Sho said that he didn’t want to use condoms; he wanted them to experience each other as fully as possible.
After depositing Jun on the bed, the newly married couple looked at each other, hesitant about the next step. Sho had ensured that everything they could possibly need had been placed in the suite before their arrival by his Secretary Ninomiya Kazunari, even the bottle of lube hidden in the drawer of the small table beside the bed. Sho wasn’t the least embarrassed; Nino knew every detail about his employer and was completely trustworthy; Sho would trust him with his life despite his prickly nature and smart mouth.
Sho had restrained himself for so long he wasn’t sure of the best way to take Jun for the first time. He wanted it to be a special experience, but he didn’t trust himself to be gentle enough.
Jun though, took matters into his own hands. He climbed off the bed and headed towards the bathroom, removing his clothing and dropping the items on the floor as he went. He paused and looked back at Sho while saying, “I am going to run a bath. I’m sure it’s more than big enough for two.”
Sho gave Jun enough time to run the bath and settle himself before stripping off his own clothing and padding naked into the bathroom, ice bucket with chilled champagne and two fluted glasses in his hands.
The bathtub was enormous, constructed of black marble and recessed into the floor. There was a perfect view of the shimmering midnight Tokyo skyline from inside the bath as well.
Jun had obviously emptied the entire contents of the bubble bath into the running water in an attempt to somewhat hide his naked body. He was floating around in a sea of foam, his cheeks pink-tinged from the warmth of the water.
“Champagne, my love?” Sho asked as he slipped into the water opposite Jun.
Jun found it impossible to look away from the hard, muscular body of his husband, revealed properly for the first time. “Y-yes please.”
Sho filled the crystal flutes and positioned himself beside Jun, both of them gazing at the myriad lights of the city.
Jun’s eyes were wide and sparkling with childish excitement at the splendour of his surroundings and the magnificence of the view.
Sho couldn’t help but remark, “Absolutely beautiful.”
“I agree. The view is breathtaking,” Jun replied; taking a sip of his champagne, twitching his nose as the bubbles assaulted him.
“Not the view, my love — you.” Sho put down his untouched glass and slid Jun onto his lap, still facing the view.
“Shouldn’t we make a toast?” Jun asked pressing himself back against Sho’s hard body.
Sho lifted his glass one more and clinked it against Jun’s “To our lives together.”
Jun echoed his words and then shivered as Sho ran his tongue up the side of his slender neck. Jun tried to turn to kiss Sho properly but found himself being held firmly in place as Sho began to tease his nipples with his free hand.
Jun sighed and let his head relax backwards onto Sho’s shoulder as excitement threaded its way up his spine.
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Jun gasped with pleasure as Sho slid smoothly into his body with slow but deep thrusts of his hips. He ran his hands over the hard planes of Sho’s back, feeling the muscles contract and then relax with Sho’s movements. It had been scary at first; Jun had always feared that it would be a painful experience, being penetrated for the first time, and there had been nobody for him to talk to and put his fears at rest.
Sho had sensed his apprehension and had been incredibly loving and patient as he prepared Jun. He had gently soothed away all of Jun’s tension and doubts with softly murmured words of love as he slowly opened his entrance with his smooth long fingers.
"Relax Beauty, I promise to take things slow," Sho said as he'd kissed Jun lovingly; making him feel completely secure before slowly inching his way inside his tight heat.
Jun bucked his hips up against Sho, matching his thrusts with perfect timing, embarrassed at the sounds of desperate need pouring from his mouth as he felt his orgasm hovering just a hairs breadth away.
Sho looked at him with love as he reached between their straining bodies and twisted his hand along Jun's cock. "I love you baby. Come for me now."
The look in Sho's eyes made Jun fall even deeper for him as he cried out and released his semen over Sho's hand a minute before Sho stilled suddenly.
Jun shuddered at the odd sensation as spurts of Sho's cum filled him for the first time, finding the feeling to be more pleasurable than he'd anticipated.
"I love you too Sho," Jun murmured as he fell asleep in his husband's arms.
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Sho's mother was correct and the house and its furnishings were indeed beautiful. There was even a cleaner who came in daily to keep everything spotless.
Jun was soon bored and spent hours each day preparing complicated and intricate meals for Sho and his business associates who came to dinner on a regular basis. Sho told Jun that he was an important step in enabling him to clinch vital deals; his charm won over many a recalcitrant potential client.
When Jun mentioned the possibility of working outside the house Sho kissed him and suggested a hobby instead. Jun found himself agreeing, the memory of his poor grades in school still fresh in his mind.
Instead he took up painting, finding the act of splashing paint violently across the canvas released tension he didn't even know he was holding inside.
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Winter came and the promised honeymoon vacation to a tropical beach didn't materialize, but they did go skiing instead; Sho's choice of course.
Jun couldn't complain; it was at least a chance for them to spend time together for an entire five nights. The problem was that he didn't know how to ski, his family were comfortably well off, but not to the extent of funding skiing holidays. Any spare money had been spent rather more sensibly on the boys' education, which in Shun's case had paid off as he was enjoying great success as a lawyer at one of Tokyo's most respected firms.
"But Sho, I don't think I can do this!" Jun shrieked.
After a day's worth of lessons with an experienced instructor Sho had decided that Jun was up to joining him on one of the easier slopes.
"Don't worry, it's perfectly safe," Sho called back over his shoulder as he raced ahead.
At first it was almost fun as Jun picked up speed, but then he lost control, tumbling into the snow bank that looked so soft and fluffy but felt like hitting a bag of cement as he crashed into it.
For the first little while Jun couldn't get his lungs to work after the air had been squashed out of them when he crashed. He was about to panic when a pair of strong arms pulled him upwards.
"Jun? Baby, I'm so sorry," Sho rocked him gently until he began to take some shuddering breaths, his head buzzing from the impact. "I forgot you didn't know how to ski."
Sho checked Jun over for injuries, relieved that even though he was bruised and winded, he was still mostly intact.
"You left me behind. You said that you'd stay beside me and protect me," Jun replied with an angry glare.
"I got carried away. I promise to stay by your side from now on," Sho replied with a pleading look. Their vacation time was so short and he wanted it to be perfect for both of them, not ruined by his selfish actions.
"In that case, no more skiing for the day, you can join me in front of the fire with hot chocolate instead," Jun said as he shakily rose to his feet, wincing slightly.
"Anything you want baby. All I need to be happy is you," Sho said, before he gently helped Jun make his way safely back to their cabin.
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For their first wedding anniversary Sho bought Jun furniture, which made Aiba green with envy when Jun told him. What Jun didn't mention was that it was for the nursery that Sho was planning to turn their smallest guest room into.
Sho was excited when he flung back the door to reveal the complete set of matching white furniture, right down to the rocking chair in front of the window. He couldn't wait to see Jun's expression.
But Jun looked more angry than excited. "What's all this?"
"Furniture? For the baby?" Sho said with more than a touch of sarcasm.
"What baby? We haven't even discussed this."
"But Jun, we agreed to start trying after a year."
"We agreed to enjoy our marriage first. Aren't I enough for you?"
"Of course. But Jun, I love you and I want to have a baby with you. Is that so wrong of me?"
Jun once again saw nothing but sincerity and love in Sho's eyes so he agreed to discontinue using the birth control and let nature take its course.
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Even though he knew that it would take at least a month for Jun to become fertile again, Sho plunged into baby making with great enthusiasm and a day-by-day schedule.
Almost a year passed by without results and that was when Jun began to feel used. There was no longer any fun or spontaneity in their lovemaking; it made him feel less like a loved human being and more like a sperm receptacle with every passing day.
He knew that Sho loved him and he loved his husband in return, but it seemed as if they had lost each other over the past few months.
It had been as if he was on automatic pilot, looking at a complete stranger from the outside, when he packed his bags and wrote a letter to Sho before leaving their house, possibly forever.
Rating: This chapter NC-17
Genre: m-preg, romance, au
Disclaimer: This is entirely fiction, and couldn’t exist anywhere else but in my head.
Summary: Sakurai Sho has always achieved everything he's ever wanted in his successful business life. Why is it so different in his personal life? Sho has no idea that anything is even wrong with his marriage until he comes home one night and finds his young husband gone. Will he be able to find Jun and make things right between them again?
Previously: CH 1
Jun was only twelve when he laid eyes on Sakurai Sho for the first time.
His older brother Shun brought a gaggle of his new friends from university home with him. A bunch of nineteen year-olds with dyed hair and piercings clattered into the house talking and laughing loudly, causing Jun to shrink into himself and hide away from their sight.
He had run into one of them when he was quietly making his way to the bathroom, hoping to escape their notice. He'd been tormented by some of his brother's high school friends once before a few years earlier and he had no wish whatsoever to repeat the experience.
Unfortunately it was in the literal sense that he ran into the older guy, bouncing off a solidly muscular body and ricocheting onto the hard tiled floor.
A surprisingly soft and deep voice came from the guy with the blonde hair and the piercing in the lobe of his left ear.
"Are you ok? No damage done?" he asked as he held out his hand, offering to help Jun up. But it was all too embarrassing for Jun as he squeaked and fled to the bathroom, locking himself in and leaning his back against the door as his heart raced.
Shun laughed about it later and asked Jun what he'd done to his friend Sho, who had enquired about his 'cute' little brother's welfare earlier in the day.
Jun didn't see Sho again until he turned eighteen and his parents set out on a mission to find a suitable husband for their younger son who had unexpectedly turned out to be a Carrier – a male able to bear children; the first one in their family for generations.
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Jun had been horrified when the test confirmed that he was a Carrier. All boys were tested when they turned sixteen and he had been the only one in his year to return a positive result. His parents and brother had tried not to express their confusion and dismay with varying degrees of success.
Aiba's family on the other hand had been pinning their hopes on their only son being a Carrier. They had already spent as much as they could afford to send him to the private boarding school. There has always been a Carrier in each generation of their family and they had pinned their hopes on Aiba's test coming back positive.
His attendance at the school had put Aiba in the right circles to find himself a husband from a rich family, who would hopefully be able and willing to afford to pay for his further education. Aiba had always wanted to be a doctor for as long as he could remember, but the expense of it would be a financial stress too large for his family to bear without outside assistance.
As a direct result of his test being negative Aiba had switched his ambition to becoming a nurse instead. He figured that he could always study as a doctor later on when he'd qualified and worked for a few years.
When he and Jun discussed it later that night back in their shared room, Aiba had confessed his relief at not being a Carrier. He had never felt the slightest of desires for men and had been terrified at the prospect of being stuck with one for the rest of his life merely because of an ability to bear children.
Jun had known from a fairly young age that he was attracted to males and would have been happy to freely choose a boyfriend for himself and enjoy himself for a few years before even thinking of settling down. The confirmation that he was a Carrier had removed that possibility. His parents had a responsibility under the current laws to ensure that he was married to a suitable man by his twentieth birthday. Falling fertility rates in women had led to Carriers becoming a valuable commodity amongst the richest of families eager to ensure their line of succession; especially those with eldest sons who were only interested in their own gender. These powerful families were also the lawmakers, and so it had come about that choice of partner had effectively been taken out of the Carriers' hands.
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"Jun, please be on your best behaviour this time. It's very important for your future," Jun's mother pleaded with her son as she placed his cleaned and ironed clothes on his bed.
As soon as Jun graduated from high school he had parted ways with Aiba, who had gained entry to a university located four hours away. Jun was not so lucky; his grades at school had plummeted after his diagnosis. There had seemed little point to him studying when his future was already mapped out for him.
He had already been introduced to three potential suitors, all of whom had turned out to be completely wrong for him. The first man had been middle-aged at best, and had been previously married to a woman who had failed to bear children. The second had talked about having enough children to form a football team, which had even made Jun's parents want to flee halfway through the meeting. The last had been even worse, forcing Jun to spend most of the evening fending off his groping hands. Even though he was basically being forced into a modern day equivalent of an arranged marriage, it was entirely up to Jun whether to accept the offer or not.
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The last thing that Jun expected when he entered the restaurant behind his parents was the sound of a familiar deep voice. His heart raced as he arrived at the table where his brother Shun was already seated with a middle-aged couple and his latest potential suitor.
The years fell away and Jun was suddenly once again a shy twelve-year-old falling down in the hallway.
It was Sakurai Sho, six years older and even more handsome. The bleached hair and piercing were gone, replaced by smooth dark hair cut elegantly around his face. He was wearing a pair of designer glasses and what was also definitely a designer suit.
Jun glared at Shun, outraged that he hadn't thought to warn him that it was Sho that he was meeting. Shun winked back and gave a subtle thumbs-up gesture.
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Jun had no idea what he ate or anyone said throughout the elaborate meal. All Jun remembered afterwards were Sho's intensely dark eyes that remained fixed in his direction the entire time.
After dessert, but before the coffee was served, Sho invited him to get a breath of air on the balcony. Jun hesitated, but Shun accepted for him and practically shoved the pair of them out of the dining room, earning himself a glare from Sho on the way out.
"I'm sorry that I couldn't speak to you before now, but it is frowned upon to contact each other directly until our parents have formally met," Sho began, his hands fidgeting nervously.
"Why me?" Jun was curious to know. He'd seen Sho at a distance at Shun's university graduation but not since.
"I’m afraid you'll think I'm a creep," Sho replied, blushing slightly. "I remembered how cute you were when you were younger, and when Shun told me about you being a Carrier and showed me your photo, I really wanted to see if there could be something between us."
"Only a little creepy, and I must remember to kill my brother later," Jun replied with a smile.
"So do I have your permission to date you with a view to marriage?" Sho was suddenly awkwardly formal.
Jun didn't even hesitate for a second; he’d always harboured a crush on his brother’s friend ever since their meeting when he was only twelve. "Yes please."
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On Jun's nineteenth birthday they became engaged.
Sho's formal proposal at a dinner attended by both sets of parents was followed up by a much less formal proposal in the back seat of his convertible as he and Jun sat and looked at the stars.
Even though they were now formally engaged, Jun would remain a virgin until is wedding night. Sho maintained that it was improper to have sex before marriage. He was afraid of the impact that the scandal would have on the family business groups if he got Jun pregnant before the wedding.
At twenty-six Sho was the youngest CEO in the conglomerate and he was determined to validate his father's belief in him.
"Are you sure about this?" Sho knew that the seven year age gap might prove to be a problem in the future and he didn't want to force Jun into something against his will.
"Do you love me?" Jun asked quietly, lightly touching the gold locket hanging around his neck that had been an engagement present from Sho.
"Of course. You are everything I've always wished for," Sho replied, clasping Jun's hand in his own.
"Say the words, or it doesn't count."
"I. Love. You." Sho replied, punctuating his words with light pecks on the tip of Jun's nose.
Jun laughed and climbed onto Sho lap, rubbing up against him like an oversized cat. "I am completely sure. I want to spend the rest of my life with you and no one else."
"Now you say the words," Sho replied, pulling Jun flush against his body.
"I. Love. You." Jun said, kissing Sho's red lips.
Sho's eyes grew dark as he kissed Jun in return, sliding his tongue between his parted lips as Jun rubbed his cock against his own.
"J-Jun, we should stop," Sho gasped soon after as he felt his member stiffen in response to Jun's motions.
"Can't," Jun panted as he rutted against Sho's crotch, his own cock just as hard.
"Wait," Sho quickly unzipped his fly, freeing his thick erection, doing the same a moment later for Jun's.
Jun gasped as the cool night air met with his heated flesh. His cock was the same length as Sho's but not quite as thick. Even though they had been dating for a year, they had never yet seen each other naked.
Sho shifted Jun slightly on his lap so that their exposed members rubbed against each other. Jun cried out at the sensation as Sho took both of their cocks in his hand and began to stroke them. He encouraged Jun to do the same and soon they were rocking against their joined hands, kissing desperately as they chased their orgasms.
They came almost simultaneously; a wave of hot liquid gushing over their hands as they cried out into each other's mouths.
Sho laughed ruefully at the sticky wet patches on his suit as he found a packet of wipes in the pocket on the back of the seat behind Jun. Sho wiped his fingers clean before carefully sliding Jun off his lap and onto the seat beside him, where he slumped into a boneless heap leaning heavily against his side.
"A little help here," Sho said as he tried to clean off Jun as well, but it was difficult as he tried to support his full weight at the same time.
"Nope, too sleepy." Jun grumbled.
"Come on Sleeping Beauty. I have to get you home before Shun comes looking to kick my ass." Sho finally managed to get Jun dressed decently and sitting upright.
"Fine. But can I sleep on the way home?" Jun asked with a barely concealed yawn.
"Anything you want, my Beauty," Sho replied with an indulgent smile.
"If you keep calling me that, this will turn out to possibly be the shortest engagement in history," Jun mumbled as he allowed Sho to steer him towards the front passenger seat.
"Anything you say...my Beauty," Sho called out as he ducked away from Jun's swinging hand and ran round to the comparative safety of the far side of the car.
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The lavish but elegant wedding was held a week after Jun turned twenty.
Simple gold bands glittered on their fingers as Sho danced Jun around in a slow circle on the dance floor surrounded by well-wishers.
Most of the guests were business associates of Sakurai Industries, with a few of Jun's relatives standing nervously around the edges of the ballroom in one of the hotels owned by the Sakurai family.
To Jun's great joy, Aiba had arrived after dinner on the day of his birthday, laden down with an armful of plastic bags and holding his suit bag clenched between his teeth.
After hastily depositing his belongings in the smallest spare room Aiba rushed straight to Jun's bedroom.
He tossed an enormous pile of assorted snacks and a small cooler containing a six pack of cold beer onto the middle of the bed, throwing himself down straight afterwards. He handed Jun a messily wrapped gift and began to fire questions at his friend.
"So, does he have an enormous dick?"
"Aiba!" Jun felt his face turning red.
"I'll take that as a yes then. So does he know how to put it to good use?"
"We...we haven't...you know...yet."
"Even after two years? You must have done something!"
"None of your business," Jun replied, remembering the sensation of Sho's lips wrapped around his cock earlier in the day. They had done everything but full penetrative intercourse over the past few months.
"But I tell you about my sex life all the time," Aiba protested.
"Yes. You do. Even after I repeatedly tell you to shut up," Jun complained.
"But seriously, are you happy about this?"
"I don't exactly have a choice," Jun replied, refusing Aiba's proffered cheesy chips, but accepting the beer he held out in his other hand. "But in truth, he is a good man and we love each other."
Admittedly Sho had only seen him once a fortnight recently as work concerns became more pressing, but Jun felt that it would be different once they were married. Surely once they were sharing a house and a bed he would be able to see Sho whenever he pleased.
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Jun laughed as Sho carried him princess style into the honeymoon suite on the top floor of the same hotel that the reception had been held in. It seemed as if the whole of Tokyo could be seen from the floor to ceiling windows. They had three nights of indulgent luxury to enjoy before Sho took Jun back to the small house that his parents had bought them as a wedding present. Sho's mother had reassured Jun that he would love the furnishings that she had picked out.
Sho had offered to take Jun somewhere exotic for an extended honeymoon later in the year, during the slower time for business. Jun had readily agreed; picturing escaping winter and laying on an exotic beach instead, making love on the warm sand under a tropical moon.
Jun and Sho had agreed that Jun would take birth control for the first year of their marriage. They wanted to be able to learn to live together before bringing the stress of a baby into their lives. Jun had begun taking the injections three months before the wedding to make sure that it was effective. Sho said that he didn’t want to use condoms; he wanted them to experience each other as fully as possible.
After depositing Jun on the bed, the newly married couple looked at each other, hesitant about the next step. Sho had ensured that everything they could possibly need had been placed in the suite before their arrival by his Secretary Ninomiya Kazunari, even the bottle of lube hidden in the drawer of the small table beside the bed. Sho wasn’t the least embarrassed; Nino knew every detail about his employer and was completely trustworthy; Sho would trust him with his life despite his prickly nature and smart mouth.
Sho had restrained himself for so long he wasn’t sure of the best way to take Jun for the first time. He wanted it to be a special experience, but he didn’t trust himself to be gentle enough.
Jun though, took matters into his own hands. He climbed off the bed and headed towards the bathroom, removing his clothing and dropping the items on the floor as he went. He paused and looked back at Sho while saying, “I am going to run a bath. I’m sure it’s more than big enough for two.”
Sho gave Jun enough time to run the bath and settle himself before stripping off his own clothing and padding naked into the bathroom, ice bucket with chilled champagne and two fluted glasses in his hands.
The bathtub was enormous, constructed of black marble and recessed into the floor. There was a perfect view of the shimmering midnight Tokyo skyline from inside the bath as well.
Jun had obviously emptied the entire contents of the bubble bath into the running water in an attempt to somewhat hide his naked body. He was floating around in a sea of foam, his cheeks pink-tinged from the warmth of the water.
“Champagne, my love?” Sho asked as he slipped into the water opposite Jun.
Jun found it impossible to look away from the hard, muscular body of his husband, revealed properly for the first time. “Y-yes please.”
Sho filled the crystal flutes and positioned himself beside Jun, both of them gazing at the myriad lights of the city.
Jun’s eyes were wide and sparkling with childish excitement at the splendour of his surroundings and the magnificence of the view.
Sho couldn’t help but remark, “Absolutely beautiful.”
“I agree. The view is breathtaking,” Jun replied; taking a sip of his champagne, twitching his nose as the bubbles assaulted him.
“Not the view, my love — you.” Sho put down his untouched glass and slid Jun onto his lap, still facing the view.
“Shouldn’t we make a toast?” Jun asked pressing himself back against Sho’s hard body.
Sho lifted his glass one more and clinked it against Jun’s “To our lives together.”
Jun echoed his words and then shivered as Sho ran his tongue up the side of his slender neck. Jun tried to turn to kiss Sho properly but found himself being held firmly in place as Sho began to tease his nipples with his free hand.
Jun sighed and let his head relax backwards onto Sho’s shoulder as excitement threaded its way up his spine.
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Jun gasped with pleasure as Sho slid smoothly into his body with slow but deep thrusts of his hips. He ran his hands over the hard planes of Sho’s back, feeling the muscles contract and then relax with Sho’s movements. It had been scary at first; Jun had always feared that it would be a painful experience, being penetrated for the first time, and there had been nobody for him to talk to and put his fears at rest.
Sho had sensed his apprehension and had been incredibly loving and patient as he prepared Jun. He had gently soothed away all of Jun’s tension and doubts with softly murmured words of love as he slowly opened his entrance with his smooth long fingers.
"Relax Beauty, I promise to take things slow," Sho said as he'd kissed Jun lovingly; making him feel completely secure before slowly inching his way inside his tight heat.
Jun bucked his hips up against Sho, matching his thrusts with perfect timing, embarrassed at the sounds of desperate need pouring from his mouth as he felt his orgasm hovering just a hairs breadth away.
Sho looked at him with love as he reached between their straining bodies and twisted his hand along Jun's cock. "I love you baby. Come for me now."
The look in Sho's eyes made Jun fall even deeper for him as he cried out and released his semen over Sho's hand a minute before Sho stilled suddenly.
Jun shuddered at the odd sensation as spurts of Sho's cum filled him for the first time, finding the feeling to be more pleasurable than he'd anticipated.
"I love you too Sho," Jun murmured as he fell asleep in his husband's arms.
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Sho's mother was correct and the house and its furnishings were indeed beautiful. There was even a cleaner who came in daily to keep everything spotless.
Jun was soon bored and spent hours each day preparing complicated and intricate meals for Sho and his business associates who came to dinner on a regular basis. Sho told Jun that he was an important step in enabling him to clinch vital deals; his charm won over many a recalcitrant potential client.
When Jun mentioned the possibility of working outside the house Sho kissed him and suggested a hobby instead. Jun found himself agreeing, the memory of his poor grades in school still fresh in his mind.
Instead he took up painting, finding the act of splashing paint violently across the canvas released tension he didn't even know he was holding inside.
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Winter came and the promised honeymoon vacation to a tropical beach didn't materialize, but they did go skiing instead; Sho's choice of course.
Jun couldn't complain; it was at least a chance for them to spend time together for an entire five nights. The problem was that he didn't know how to ski, his family were comfortably well off, but not to the extent of funding skiing holidays. Any spare money had been spent rather more sensibly on the boys' education, which in Shun's case had paid off as he was enjoying great success as a lawyer at one of Tokyo's most respected firms.
"But Sho, I don't think I can do this!" Jun shrieked.
After a day's worth of lessons with an experienced instructor Sho had decided that Jun was up to joining him on one of the easier slopes.
"Don't worry, it's perfectly safe," Sho called back over his shoulder as he raced ahead.
At first it was almost fun as Jun picked up speed, but then he lost control, tumbling into the snow bank that looked so soft and fluffy but felt like hitting a bag of cement as he crashed into it.
For the first little while Jun couldn't get his lungs to work after the air had been squashed out of them when he crashed. He was about to panic when a pair of strong arms pulled him upwards.
"Jun? Baby, I'm so sorry," Sho rocked him gently until he began to take some shuddering breaths, his head buzzing from the impact. "I forgot you didn't know how to ski."
Sho checked Jun over for injuries, relieved that even though he was bruised and winded, he was still mostly intact.
"You left me behind. You said that you'd stay beside me and protect me," Jun replied with an angry glare.
"I got carried away. I promise to stay by your side from now on," Sho replied with a pleading look. Their vacation time was so short and he wanted it to be perfect for both of them, not ruined by his selfish actions.
"In that case, no more skiing for the day, you can join me in front of the fire with hot chocolate instead," Jun said as he shakily rose to his feet, wincing slightly.
"Anything you want baby. All I need to be happy is you," Sho said, before he gently helped Jun make his way safely back to their cabin.
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For their first wedding anniversary Sho bought Jun furniture, which made Aiba green with envy when Jun told him. What Jun didn't mention was that it was for the nursery that Sho was planning to turn their smallest guest room into.
Sho was excited when he flung back the door to reveal the complete set of matching white furniture, right down to the rocking chair in front of the window. He couldn't wait to see Jun's expression.
But Jun looked more angry than excited. "What's all this?"
"Furniture? For the baby?" Sho said with more than a touch of sarcasm.
"What baby? We haven't even discussed this."
"But Jun, we agreed to start trying after a year."
"We agreed to enjoy our marriage first. Aren't I enough for you?"
"Of course. But Jun, I love you and I want to have a baby with you. Is that so wrong of me?"
Jun once again saw nothing but sincerity and love in Sho's eyes so he agreed to discontinue using the birth control and let nature take its course.
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Even though he knew that it would take at least a month for Jun to become fertile again, Sho plunged into baby making with great enthusiasm and a day-by-day schedule.
Almost a year passed by without results and that was when Jun began to feel used. There was no longer any fun or spontaneity in their lovemaking; it made him feel less like a loved human being and more like a sperm receptacle with every passing day.
He knew that Sho loved him and he loved his husband in return, but it seemed as if they had lost each other over the past few months.
It had been as if he was on automatic pilot, looking at a complete stranger from the outside, when he packed his bags and wrote a letter to Sho before leaving their house, possibly forever.
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Date: 2017-03-14 09:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-03-14 09:51 am (UTC)Don't worry, Jun is in safe hands with Aiba.
Thank you for reading my dear. 💕
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Date: 2017-03-14 10:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-03-14 09:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-03-14 09:54 am (UTC)Thank you for reading. ❤
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Date: 2017-03-14 12:57 pm (UTC)Awww... I love how fluffy the start was and how sexy the middle was. Their love story is so cute! They both had a crush on each other at first sight! And I must thank Shun for getting them together in the end. I also love how traditional Sho was. It's like he did everything by the book. But I'm a bit sad with how their love story developed. I understand though how Jun felt. He must have really felt used. I hope Sho realizes his mistake and get Jun back.
Thank you so much for the update! I can't wait for next Tuesday to read the next chapter.
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Date: 2017-03-15 08:49 am (UTC)It just went a bit wrong after that.
Thanks for reading. See you next week ❤
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Date: 2017-03-14 03:00 pm (UTC)I think Sho must do more than only see that he used Jun as a baby-machine. He also has to learn to see that Jun wasn't able to make his own decisions since he is a teen and was proven to be a carrier. Married to Sho, Sho didn't let him decide either. Everything was his wish and decision, may it be skiiing holiday, telling Jun not to work but to look for a hobby, jumping into baby production, buying furnitures, even the no-sex-rule-before-marriage etc. Sho hasn't only used Jun as a baby-machine but as a perfect little hosewife robot. Unintentionally of course, but it did happen. Sho showers Jun with luxery, and it's sweet how he constantly buys presents for him, but there is more to a loving relationship and to making a people feel loved and worthy than materialistic things.
I guess Sho hasn't learned it different and just meant well, but I hope this will be a wake-up call for him!
When Jun told Aiba that he didn't have a choice to marry or not, but that despite this he loves Sho, it really showed how sad Jun's situation was actually. Of course he loves Sho and had a crush on him, but for him it seems like his life and free will was basically over when he got the positive results.
Getting away from this life was obviously the only healthy thing Jun could do. Aiba was right when he told him: Jun needs to be himself and do something. That's about it (Yay for Aiba by the way. I love him <3)
OMG, see how much I rambled? :D Love this!
Thanks for the update <3
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Date: 2017-03-15 09:24 am (UTC)Jun's life basically stalled when he was shown to be a Carrier. He just sort of gave up and resigned himself to a future that had been taken out of his hands. And at first it was enough for him when Sho was so kind and loving but when things changed he realized that his life was pretty hollow.
He was lucky to have Aiba to run to. He is good at offering him practical advice and giving him a taste of the normal life that he has missed out on so far.
This one is a bit different to things I've written before. I don't think I've had such a dark start before.
Thanks for your insightful comments as always.
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Date: 2017-03-14 03:24 pm (UTC)Awwww pooor Jun.....i really do hope that things work out for him and Sho.....stupid Sho...hes got the whole view of love a little wrong....hopefully they can work things out
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Date: 2017-03-15 08:56 am (UTC)I'm sure that he will do his best.
Thanks for always reading and commenting. 💕
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Date: 2017-03-14 05:36 pm (UTC)oh darn how my heart aches again lolI wish Jun said something earlier on, or that Sho noticed before everything went wrong. But I guess Sho is really stupid and selfish, and Jun was too in love and too willing to give into Sho's wishes to have said something. Or perhaps the prospect of being married to somebody who he knew and had a crush on, and seemingly respectable and caring (I'm certain Sho cares for Jun, but the love is still misplaced unfortunately) outweighed his discomfort in the marriage after the honeymoon period settled.
Oh Jun....
{Thank you for the update <3}
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Date: 2017-03-15 09:14 am (UTC)but not reallySho hasn't fallen out of love with Jun, but he has forgotten how to show him that he still does.
Thanks for reading, my friend.
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Date: 2017-03-16 01:50 pm (UTC)Its okay I'll be torturing Jun soon too, eventually. >:D
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Date: 2017-03-14 08:21 pm (UTC)Stupid, stupid Sho! >:( How didn't he notice what he was doing, eh?
The beginning was so cute though. Little Jun having a crush on Sho, awwww <3
Sho better make things right now! (though I kinda want Jun to stay away from him for a while xD)
Thanks for the update! :D Will be waiting for more~
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Date: 2017-03-15 09:04 am (UTC)It is kind of sweet that they knew each other way back when and never forgot that meeting.
Thanks for reading ☺
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Date: 2017-03-16 01:49 am (UTC)Anywayyyyyyy, Sho. It seems like he's a good one at first. Now it makes me wonder if the thought of Jun bearing a child for him was an inherent belief instilled by his family (well, you said it's the rich ones who made this culture happen). I hate it that he thinks that material things = love. Jun was not rich so I guess he knows that there's more to that.
Day-by-day fucking? That's not even love-making!Thanks for this. This one really started so good. I want Sho to learn a lesson *laughs evilly*
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Date: 2017-03-16 08:59 am (UTC)But I think he just sort of froze when he found out about being a Carrier and just gave in to what other people expected of him
The hard thing is that he loves Sho so very much and wants nothing more than to be with him, but he also knows that at the moment that wouldn't be a good thing for either of them.
Hopefully this is what Sho needs to appreciate Jun more.
Thanks for reading dear 💕
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Date: 2017-03-16 11:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-03-16 08:07 pm (UTC)He just needs a good slapping.
Thanks for reading 💕
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Date: 2017-03-17 05:46 am (UTC)Jun didn't have a long time to enjoy a single life and being married too early makes him understandably rebellious (adding to that how Sho wants babies too early in their marriage) that Jun feels suffocated (he's still young) and I think it's a hard problem to solve until Sho put his feet on Jun's shoes
Well Sho has to find Jun first right? XD
(am I too deep in this? lols)
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Date: 2017-03-17 08:14 am (UTC)If Jun had found the courage to speak up then perhaps things wouldn't have gotten so bad
Jun needs to find the courage to stand up for himself. (Or perhaps just get someone to punch Sho in the face.)
Wow, I am a little over invested as well. Heh.
Thanks for reading 💕
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Date: 2017-03-21 09:26 am (UTC)I hope theyvfind their way together again :)
Thanks for the update ❤
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Date: 2017-03-21 09:32 am (UTC)You confused me for a second there because you commented just after I posted the next chapter and I thought you must be a champion speed reader ☺
They really do love each other so that should hopefully help them through their problems.
Thanks for reading 💕
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Date: 2017-03-31 08:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-03-31 08:30 pm (UTC)Thanks for reading.