Relinquish
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learashiPairing: Junba
Rating: R
Genre: angst
Warning: non-con scene which may be a trigger for people
Disclaimer: I do not own any part of Arashi or its members - this is a work of fiction.
Summary: He had never before considered how wonderful it felt to relinquish control.
It would be safe to say that most people, if they had been given the chance to learn about Masaki and Jun’s relationship they would automatically assume that Jun would be the one in charge; after all this was the public’s perception of the pair.
To the fans they considered them this way: Masaki – a funny, air headed, ray of sunshine, Jun – a stoic perfectionist, and if they chose to play up to this preconception who could blame them? It made things easier all round and kept their private life exactly that – private.
Jun had of course had sex with other men before hooking up with his band mate, and every time he had been the dominant one. But when he got together with Masaki, the first time they had sex he was surprised to suddenly realise that he was on his back on the couch with Masaki folding him in half until his knees were somehow almost behind his ears as he pounded his ass into the upholstery. He was even more surprised to discover how much he was enjoying the experience. He had never before considered how wonderful it felt to relinquish control just for a little while.
Since then the scenario had been repeated in many places and many different positions. Most of which seemed to involve Jun doing something impossibly bendy while Aiba fucked him senseless. He and Aiba would share a secret smile when choreographers praised his increased flexibility.
He had no exact way to describe their relationship. It certainly wasn't love, or at least that's what he tried to tell himself, even as the frequency of these encounters increased over time. He had wanted to talk to Aiba and tell him that just having sex wasn't enough anymore, but he was afraid that Aiba would just replace him with another no strings fuck buddy.
Jun was awoken from his reverie by a husky voice in his ear.
"Tonight?” Aiba asked, giving his bottom a furtive squeeze as they headed into the studio for filming.
Jun hummed a positive response "My place or yours?"
"Neither. Since the weather is fine, I thought we could enjoy some outdoor activities." Aiba could be quite the risk taker when the mood struck him.
"OK. You bring the lube and condoms and I'll bring the picnic rug. Last time I ended up with my ass on a patch of nettles."
"What makes you think that the nettles weren't deliberate?" purred Aiba in his ear before they went their separate ways.
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The next day they were beginning to learn new choreography and Jun was embarrassed to admit that he was struggling. Aiba had been particularly rough the night before and Jun felt as if he had been sawn in half.
Normally Aiba was a considerate lover and was always careful to not go too far if they played certain games, but he had seemed upset about something and had been unusually hard on him. He had given him the bare minimum of preparation before slamming him against a tree in the abandoned park they often used for outdoor activities under the cover of darkness. He had thrust fully in without warning and without using any lube, and immediately began pounding into him without pausing, the whole time maintaining an un-Aiba like silence. Aiba had come quickly, before Jun was remotely close as the burning pain made it impossible to enjoy it very much. In fact his erection had wilted as soon as the older man thrust into him and the pain of the act had made it impossible for Jun to become hard again. Aiba apologised immediately afterwards and offered to work on his flagging cock but he had refused. It had been more pain than pleasure and Jun was just relieved that it was over quickly.
For the first time since they had started this non-relationship Jun felt what they had been doing for the last few months wasn't right, like he was something that Aiba used for his own convenience, and he realised that he didn't like that feeling at all. He had just asked Aiba to take him home instead.
Neither of them had spoken on the ride home. They had hardly even been able to look at each other. He got out of the car without inviting Aiba in as he usually did, and suddenly feeling dirty and used he had called a quick goodbye over his shoulder and practically ran into his apartment building without looking back feeling perilously close to tears. He'd spent a long time in the shower afterwards trying to scrub away the unclean feeling.
And then Sho had arrived this morning with a disapproving look on his face, brandishing last night's newspaper which had a bunch of blurry pictures of Jun supposedly having secret trysts with a well known actress after hours in a nearby restaurant. He couldn't even remember being at that restaurant lately and on closer inspection he realised that the photos had been taken about two years ago. The entire cast of his drama at that time had eaten together before filming started, but the paper had cut the others out of the shot. He knew it was complete rubbish and put Sho's mind at rest and promptly forgot about it.
Aiba tried to talk to him several times throughout the day, but he had so far managed to find a way to avoid being alone with him. His lower back and ass were still killing him, and also his forearms which were scratched from being scraped against the rough bark on the tree as he had buried his face in them forcing himself not to cry as Aiba had taken him. He went to the bathroom, knowing that Nino kept a stash of emergency painkillers there for when his own back problems became too much for him. In fact Nino stomped into the room after him and slammed the door shut, locking it behind him.
"Spill it," Nino said with an angry expression.
"What do you mean?" Jun said trying to be casual.
"Why are you walking around looking like me on a bad day?" Nino said as he pulled out two painkillers and handed them over. "You were with Aiba last night weren't you? Don't think about denying it. I heard you two making your usual perverted plans. What did he do to you?"
"He was just a bit rougher than usual."
Nino suddenly leant forward and pulled at Jun's shirt, revealing finger shaped bruises on his hips and the scratches on his arms. Not satisfied, he turned Jun around revealing more bruising on the back of his neck where Aiba had held him tightly as he pushed him against the tree.
"Was this part of one of your games?" Both Nino and Ohno knew about their no strings arrangement. Neither of them fully approved.
"Not exactly." Jun winced as he gingerly sat down on the closed toilet lid.
"Do you enjoy being hurt?" Nino glared into his eyes, making lying impossible.
"No."
"And he hurt you didn't he?"
"Yes, but...."
"Right. I see. I'm going to kill him."
"Nino, no!"
"Nobody hurts you and gets away with it," he said, pulling Jun into a tight hug. "Just be happy that it's me and not Riida who found out, or Aiba would already be dead."
"Please don't. This is something that the two of us have to sort out between us."
"Fine. But I will be close by in case you need me and I will make sure that this doesn’t happen again."
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Jun was still scared of what Nino might do, but as they returned to their changing room he merely walked over to where Aiba was sitting and plopped himself down on his lap. He leant forward and whispered something in his ear which made Aiba go pale.
"Jun, you and this one need to talk. We'll leave you alone, but I'll just be outside the door if you need me." Nino said as he pulled a confused Ohno and Sho towards the door. "And don't worry, I told him that if he ever does it again I will cut his dick off," he added, making snipping motions with his fingers. Ohno who was still within earshot instantly froze and turned towards Aiba, looking furious, forcing Nino to tug him away, muttering that he would explain everything when they were outside.
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After the others left, with Nino and Riida arguing loudly near the door for a few seconds before Sho shushed them and dragged them further up the hallway, the room fell into an awkward silence. Jun sat down as far away from Aiba as he could, looking down at his hands which he held bunched tightly together in his lap.
Aiba stood up, walked over to where Jun sat and knelt down of the floor in front of him, taking his hands in his. Jun tried to pull them away, but Aiba held them firmly in place.
"I messed up. I know I've ruined everything, and that you hate me right now, but I hope you can eventually forgive me. I'm sorry about last night. I'm so ashamed about what I did." Aiba's voice broke on his last words as he began to cry.
Jun's only response was "Why did you treat me like that?"
"There was that article in the paper about you and that actress and I just lost it. I was so jealous; I wanted to get back at you.” Aiba managed to choke the words out between sobs. “I know that what we have doesn't mean anything to you, but lately I've been feeling like I want something more and those photos just proved that you're just using me because I'm convenient."
Jun couldn't believe that just when things had gone wrong between them Aiba was telling him that he had developed feelings for him when he had been feeling the same way about him in return. "It's partly my fault too. I should have spoken up and told you that you were hurting me and asked you to stop. I could tell you were upset and I should have asked you what was wrong.”
Looking at Aiba who was a sobbing mess on the floor Jun felt as if his heart was breaking in two, adding “That article was completely made up. I haven't been with anyone else since we started seeing each other. I thought you just wanted someone handy to have sex with, but I couldn't help having feelings for you too. God, we're both so stupid."
He dropped down on the floor with the crying man, wrapping his arms around him and cried along with him knowing that he had to decide exactly what Aiba meant to him and whether he could put this behind him and start again. He had no idea how long they stayed like that, but eventually they ran out of tears.
Jun realised that they really were living up to their cry baby image and suddenly he began to laugh. Aiba looked at him with puffy red eyes, wondering if he was going mad. Jun couldn't believe how stupid they had both been over the past few months pretending that they weren't in a relationship. And because of their stubbornness, they both had suffered. He knew that his feelings for Aiba were real and that he wanted to try having a proper relationship, one that didn’t just involve just a quick fuck when they were both feeling horny. He knew that it would be a while before he was ready to have sex again anyway, the memory of what happened between them last night was still too raw.
When he could finally control himself Jun pulled away from Aiba, took a deep breath and said "Let's start again from the beginning."
"What?"
"Hello, my name is Matsumoto Jun and I think you're cute. And if you wanted to ask me out on a date I probably wouldn't say no."
Aiba, realising what Jun was saying, and finding it hard to believe he was offering him a second chance replied "It's a pleasure to meet you Matsumoto-san. My name is Aiba Masaki. I think you're pretty cute too. Would you go out on a date with me?"
"I'd love to. But I have to warn you that I expect my boyfriend to treat me well. I like to be taken to nice restaurants and I enjoy being surprised with expensive jewellery."
Aiba smiled a shaky smile, hardly believing that Jun was offering him a second chance.
"I have to tell you that I certainly don't put out on a first date. And I must warn you that I have three very protective big brothers who will take action against anyone who hurts me," Jun replied.
"In that case I will formally ask them for their permission to date you. This time I want to do things the right way." Aiba gently took Jun's hand and stroked the soft skin on the back of his wrist. "I'm so ashamed of myself and the things that I did and you have my word that I will never ever hurt you like that again."
"I hope so," Jun said. "Because this is your last chance."
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It has taken all of Nino’s powers of persuasion to stop both Sho and Ohno killing Aiba after he filled them in on events of the previous night. Sho in particular had been deeply shocked; somehow he had remained completely unaware of the sexual relationship between Jun and Aiba. Ohno had growled angrily and started back towards their dressing room with Nino attached to him like a limpet in an attempt to slow him down.
The three of them were shocked to see Aiba embracing Jun on the floor when they opened the door.
Sho and Ohno immediately leapt into action, pulling the pair of them apart.
Sho lifted Jun to his feet and steered him over to the beaten-up looking sofa, gently pressing him down onto the seat, while taking up a protective stance nearby. "You're worth so much more than that," he whispered in Jun's ear as he softly rubbed the bruises on the back of his neck. "Don't ever let anyone make you think otherwise."
Ohno was much less gentle as he dragged Aiba over to the uncomfortable straight-backed chair in the opposite corner before roughly shoving him into a sitting position. He was slow to anger but he also took a long time to forgive. When he kneed Aiba in the crotch as he pushed him down it was certainly no accident.
“Are you crazy?” Nino asked as he angrily paced around the room.
The question was directed at Jun, who shrank back slightly, frightened by the anger in Nino’s voice.
“He practically raped you and you are back together with him as if nothing happened?” Nino’s voice was a high pitched shriek by the end of this sentence.
Sho balled his hands into fists as he glared at Aiba, while at the same time Ohno’s brows met in the middle, so deep was his frown.
“He did not!” Jun shouted back. It had not been a pleasurable experience, but it certainly wasn’t rape. “I consented. I didn’t tell him to stop. It’s just as much my fault.”
“No Jun. You’re wrong. It was entirely my fault. I shouldn’t have done what I did,” Aiba said. “I knew you were in pain and I didn’t stop. I took my jealousy and anger out on you and I’ll always regret it.”
“The both of you deserve a good slapping,” Nino said. “You two idiots have been playing with fire for months. Pretending that you didn’t care about each other and not talking things through led the pair of you to this sorry state.”
“Sorry,” Jun said.
“I’m sorry too,” Aiba murmured, his face red with shame.
“Jun, if you ever let anyone do that to you again, I will personally kill you and hide the body where no one will ever find it,” Nino said.
“Sorry Nino,” Jun repeated, looking down at his feet.
“And as for you,” Nino said, turning on a shame-faced Aiba. “I wasn’t kidding about what I said earlier. You won’t be able to hurt Jun ever again if you don’t have a dick. Got it?”
Even Sho and Ohno cringed at the menace in Nino’s voice as Aiba vigorously nodded his agreement.
“Don’t you two have anything to say on the subject?” Nino asked them crossly.
Neither Sho nor Ohno dared to speak. When Nino was in one of these moods it was all too easy to become collateral damage even if you’d done nothing wrong.
“Just remember you two,” Nino said, once again focussing his wrath on the main offenders. “All contact between you two will be supervised from now on until we are satisfied that you are able to be left alone together.”
“Right?” he asked glaring around the room at his bandmates.
Four heads nodded meekly in unison.
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Jun was happily placing dishes of food on the table when the doorbell rang. He smiled and hurried to let his guest in. Aiba was standing there with a bouquet of roses in one hand and a bottle of champagne in the other.
It had been almost five months since they had officially started dating. At first the other three hadn't allowed them to be alone and their dates had turned into group outings, but Nino had decided to relax his rules after making sure that Aiba's intentions were honourable.
After a few weeks of chaste kisses and hand holding, Jun had told Aiba that he was ready for more, but Aiba was scared that he might hurt him again, like he did that last time in the park. He had repeatedly told the older man that he had suffered no permanent trauma, but Aiba himself seemed to be suffering because of it. The threat from their other bandmates had not helped to put Aiba at ease either. One of them alone would be scary enough, but with the three of them watching their every move it was certainly not conducive to a romantic atmosphere.
After being around Aiba for that amount of time and not having sex, Jun was about ready to burst. Screw the niceties of formal dating; he wanted him inside of him as soon as possible.
Aiba barely made it in past the genkan before the flowers and champagne went flying as Jun flung himself on him. They both teetered across the room, Aiba landing on his back on the sofa as Jun tried to remove his clothes. Aiba knew that he would be in big trouble if he did something without the Chastity Squad's permission and he would quite like to keep all of his important bits still attached, but it was really quite hard to think with Jun sucking on his neck and rubbing himself up against him. He managed to retrieve his phone from his pocket and hit speed dial, knowing that Ohno and Nino were having dinner together that night.
It wasn't as if the other three had arbitrarily decided that they weren't allowed to have sex ever again. It was just that they had decided that Jun had to be the one to initiate it and he had to be completely sure when he did. They didn't want Jun to feel pressured into doing something he wasn't ready for.
So when Aiba rang them to get the go ahead they weren't sure what to say, but when he accidentally put his phone on speaker as he was flailing around and they could hear Jun at the other end obviously doing things to Aiba that no one could possibly be expected to resist, they decided that it was probably time to relax their rules. As soon as Aiba heard the words "Good luck!" he dropped the phone on the floor and took hold of Jun's wandering hands which were presently down the front of his jeans stroking his cock, which made making a rational decision very hard. "Stop!" he said, pulling Jun's hands away and sitting them both upright on the sofa.
Jun couldn't believe that Aiba didn't want him when it had been so long since they'd been intimate and his vision blurred as tears filled his eyes.
Seeing Jun's devastated expression Aiba hastened to explain himself.
"Please listen to me." he said, knowing that he hadn't made himself clear at all.
He stood up, lifting a very confused Jun off the sofa and carried him princess style to the bedroom, talking as he walked.
"If we are doing this tonight then we are going to do it properly. I'm taking you to the bed as you need to be perfectly comfortable because this is going to go very slowly. It's been a long time since we've been together so I will have to take my time getting reacquainted with each and every part of your body."
As he lowered Jun to the bed and slowly began removing his clothes, softly kissing each patch of his skin as it was gradually revealed he added "Because this isn't just sex, it's about making love, and this time I want this to be the perfect experience for you."
Jun felt tears once again welling in his eyes, but this time they were tears of happiness.
A/N: Not sure about this one. Sorry to all Aiba fans. *Runs and hides under rock*
Rating: R
Genre: angst
Warning: non-con scene which may be a trigger for people
Disclaimer: I do not own any part of Arashi or its members - this is a work of fiction.
Summary: He had never before considered how wonderful it felt to relinquish control.
It would be safe to say that most people, if they had been given the chance to learn about Masaki and Jun’s relationship they would automatically assume that Jun would be the one in charge; after all this was the public’s perception of the pair.
To the fans they considered them this way: Masaki – a funny, air headed, ray of sunshine, Jun – a stoic perfectionist, and if they chose to play up to this preconception who could blame them? It made things easier all round and kept their private life exactly that – private.
Jun had of course had sex with other men before hooking up with his band mate, and every time he had been the dominant one. But when he got together with Masaki, the first time they had sex he was surprised to suddenly realise that he was on his back on the couch with Masaki folding him in half until his knees were somehow almost behind his ears as he pounded his ass into the upholstery. He was even more surprised to discover how much he was enjoying the experience. He had never before considered how wonderful it felt to relinquish control just for a little while.
Since then the scenario had been repeated in many places and many different positions. Most of which seemed to involve Jun doing something impossibly bendy while Aiba fucked him senseless. He and Aiba would share a secret smile when choreographers praised his increased flexibility.
He had no exact way to describe their relationship. It certainly wasn't love, or at least that's what he tried to tell himself, even as the frequency of these encounters increased over time. He had wanted to talk to Aiba and tell him that just having sex wasn't enough anymore, but he was afraid that Aiba would just replace him with another no strings fuck buddy.
Jun was awoken from his reverie by a husky voice in his ear.
"Tonight?” Aiba asked, giving his bottom a furtive squeeze as they headed into the studio for filming.
Jun hummed a positive response "My place or yours?"
"Neither. Since the weather is fine, I thought we could enjoy some outdoor activities." Aiba could be quite the risk taker when the mood struck him.
"OK. You bring the lube and condoms and I'll bring the picnic rug. Last time I ended up with my ass on a patch of nettles."
"What makes you think that the nettles weren't deliberate?" purred Aiba in his ear before they went their separate ways.
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The next day they were beginning to learn new choreography and Jun was embarrassed to admit that he was struggling. Aiba had been particularly rough the night before and Jun felt as if he had been sawn in half.
Normally Aiba was a considerate lover and was always careful to not go too far if they played certain games, but he had seemed upset about something and had been unusually hard on him. He had given him the bare minimum of preparation before slamming him against a tree in the abandoned park they often used for outdoor activities under the cover of darkness. He had thrust fully in without warning and without using any lube, and immediately began pounding into him without pausing, the whole time maintaining an un-Aiba like silence. Aiba had come quickly, before Jun was remotely close as the burning pain made it impossible to enjoy it very much. In fact his erection had wilted as soon as the older man thrust into him and the pain of the act had made it impossible for Jun to become hard again. Aiba apologised immediately afterwards and offered to work on his flagging cock but he had refused. It had been more pain than pleasure and Jun was just relieved that it was over quickly.
For the first time since they had started this non-relationship Jun felt what they had been doing for the last few months wasn't right, like he was something that Aiba used for his own convenience, and he realised that he didn't like that feeling at all. He had just asked Aiba to take him home instead.
Neither of them had spoken on the ride home. They had hardly even been able to look at each other. He got out of the car without inviting Aiba in as he usually did, and suddenly feeling dirty and used he had called a quick goodbye over his shoulder and practically ran into his apartment building without looking back feeling perilously close to tears. He'd spent a long time in the shower afterwards trying to scrub away the unclean feeling.
And then Sho had arrived this morning with a disapproving look on his face, brandishing last night's newspaper which had a bunch of blurry pictures of Jun supposedly having secret trysts with a well known actress after hours in a nearby restaurant. He couldn't even remember being at that restaurant lately and on closer inspection he realised that the photos had been taken about two years ago. The entire cast of his drama at that time had eaten together before filming started, but the paper had cut the others out of the shot. He knew it was complete rubbish and put Sho's mind at rest and promptly forgot about it.
Aiba tried to talk to him several times throughout the day, but he had so far managed to find a way to avoid being alone with him. His lower back and ass were still killing him, and also his forearms which were scratched from being scraped against the rough bark on the tree as he had buried his face in them forcing himself not to cry as Aiba had taken him. He went to the bathroom, knowing that Nino kept a stash of emergency painkillers there for when his own back problems became too much for him. In fact Nino stomped into the room after him and slammed the door shut, locking it behind him.
"Spill it," Nino said with an angry expression.
"What do you mean?" Jun said trying to be casual.
"Why are you walking around looking like me on a bad day?" Nino said as he pulled out two painkillers and handed them over. "You were with Aiba last night weren't you? Don't think about denying it. I heard you two making your usual perverted plans. What did he do to you?"
"He was just a bit rougher than usual."
Nino suddenly leant forward and pulled at Jun's shirt, revealing finger shaped bruises on his hips and the scratches on his arms. Not satisfied, he turned Jun around revealing more bruising on the back of his neck where Aiba had held him tightly as he pushed him against the tree.
"Was this part of one of your games?" Both Nino and Ohno knew about their no strings arrangement. Neither of them fully approved.
"Not exactly." Jun winced as he gingerly sat down on the closed toilet lid.
"Do you enjoy being hurt?" Nino glared into his eyes, making lying impossible.
"No."
"And he hurt you didn't he?"
"Yes, but...."
"Right. I see. I'm going to kill him."
"Nino, no!"
"Nobody hurts you and gets away with it," he said, pulling Jun into a tight hug. "Just be happy that it's me and not Riida who found out, or Aiba would already be dead."
"Please don't. This is something that the two of us have to sort out between us."
"Fine. But I will be close by in case you need me and I will make sure that this doesn’t happen again."
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Jun was still scared of what Nino might do, but as they returned to their changing room he merely walked over to where Aiba was sitting and plopped himself down on his lap. He leant forward and whispered something in his ear which made Aiba go pale.
"Jun, you and this one need to talk. We'll leave you alone, but I'll just be outside the door if you need me." Nino said as he pulled a confused Ohno and Sho towards the door. "And don't worry, I told him that if he ever does it again I will cut his dick off," he added, making snipping motions with his fingers. Ohno who was still within earshot instantly froze and turned towards Aiba, looking furious, forcing Nino to tug him away, muttering that he would explain everything when they were outside.
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After the others left, with Nino and Riida arguing loudly near the door for a few seconds before Sho shushed them and dragged them further up the hallway, the room fell into an awkward silence. Jun sat down as far away from Aiba as he could, looking down at his hands which he held bunched tightly together in his lap.
Aiba stood up, walked over to where Jun sat and knelt down of the floor in front of him, taking his hands in his. Jun tried to pull them away, but Aiba held them firmly in place.
"I messed up. I know I've ruined everything, and that you hate me right now, but I hope you can eventually forgive me. I'm sorry about last night. I'm so ashamed about what I did." Aiba's voice broke on his last words as he began to cry.
Jun's only response was "Why did you treat me like that?"
"There was that article in the paper about you and that actress and I just lost it. I was so jealous; I wanted to get back at you.” Aiba managed to choke the words out between sobs. “I know that what we have doesn't mean anything to you, but lately I've been feeling like I want something more and those photos just proved that you're just using me because I'm convenient."
Jun couldn't believe that just when things had gone wrong between them Aiba was telling him that he had developed feelings for him when he had been feeling the same way about him in return. "It's partly my fault too. I should have spoken up and told you that you were hurting me and asked you to stop. I could tell you were upset and I should have asked you what was wrong.”
Looking at Aiba who was a sobbing mess on the floor Jun felt as if his heart was breaking in two, adding “That article was completely made up. I haven't been with anyone else since we started seeing each other. I thought you just wanted someone handy to have sex with, but I couldn't help having feelings for you too. God, we're both so stupid."
He dropped down on the floor with the crying man, wrapping his arms around him and cried along with him knowing that he had to decide exactly what Aiba meant to him and whether he could put this behind him and start again. He had no idea how long they stayed like that, but eventually they ran out of tears.
Jun realised that they really were living up to their cry baby image and suddenly he began to laugh. Aiba looked at him with puffy red eyes, wondering if he was going mad. Jun couldn't believe how stupid they had both been over the past few months pretending that they weren't in a relationship. And because of their stubbornness, they both had suffered. He knew that his feelings for Aiba were real and that he wanted to try having a proper relationship, one that didn’t just involve just a quick fuck when they were both feeling horny. He knew that it would be a while before he was ready to have sex again anyway, the memory of what happened between them last night was still too raw.
When he could finally control himself Jun pulled away from Aiba, took a deep breath and said "Let's start again from the beginning."
"What?"
"Hello, my name is Matsumoto Jun and I think you're cute. And if you wanted to ask me out on a date I probably wouldn't say no."
Aiba, realising what Jun was saying, and finding it hard to believe he was offering him a second chance replied "It's a pleasure to meet you Matsumoto-san. My name is Aiba Masaki. I think you're pretty cute too. Would you go out on a date with me?"
"I'd love to. But I have to warn you that I expect my boyfriend to treat me well. I like to be taken to nice restaurants and I enjoy being surprised with expensive jewellery."
Aiba smiled a shaky smile, hardly believing that Jun was offering him a second chance.
"I have to tell you that I certainly don't put out on a first date. And I must warn you that I have three very protective big brothers who will take action against anyone who hurts me," Jun replied.
"In that case I will formally ask them for their permission to date you. This time I want to do things the right way." Aiba gently took Jun's hand and stroked the soft skin on the back of his wrist. "I'm so ashamed of myself and the things that I did and you have my word that I will never ever hurt you like that again."
"I hope so," Jun said. "Because this is your last chance."
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It has taken all of Nino’s powers of persuasion to stop both Sho and Ohno killing Aiba after he filled them in on events of the previous night. Sho in particular had been deeply shocked; somehow he had remained completely unaware of the sexual relationship between Jun and Aiba. Ohno had growled angrily and started back towards their dressing room with Nino attached to him like a limpet in an attempt to slow him down.
The three of them were shocked to see Aiba embracing Jun on the floor when they opened the door.
Sho and Ohno immediately leapt into action, pulling the pair of them apart.
Sho lifted Jun to his feet and steered him over to the beaten-up looking sofa, gently pressing him down onto the seat, while taking up a protective stance nearby. "You're worth so much more than that," he whispered in Jun's ear as he softly rubbed the bruises on the back of his neck. "Don't ever let anyone make you think otherwise."
Ohno was much less gentle as he dragged Aiba over to the uncomfortable straight-backed chair in the opposite corner before roughly shoving him into a sitting position. He was slow to anger but he also took a long time to forgive. When he kneed Aiba in the crotch as he pushed him down it was certainly no accident.
“Are you crazy?” Nino asked as he angrily paced around the room.
The question was directed at Jun, who shrank back slightly, frightened by the anger in Nino’s voice.
“He practically raped you and you are back together with him as if nothing happened?” Nino’s voice was a high pitched shriek by the end of this sentence.
Sho balled his hands into fists as he glared at Aiba, while at the same time Ohno’s brows met in the middle, so deep was his frown.
“He did not!” Jun shouted back. It had not been a pleasurable experience, but it certainly wasn’t rape. “I consented. I didn’t tell him to stop. It’s just as much my fault.”
“No Jun. You’re wrong. It was entirely my fault. I shouldn’t have done what I did,” Aiba said. “I knew you were in pain and I didn’t stop. I took my jealousy and anger out on you and I’ll always regret it.”
“The both of you deserve a good slapping,” Nino said. “You two idiots have been playing with fire for months. Pretending that you didn’t care about each other and not talking things through led the pair of you to this sorry state.”
“Sorry,” Jun said.
“I’m sorry too,” Aiba murmured, his face red with shame.
“Jun, if you ever let anyone do that to you again, I will personally kill you and hide the body where no one will ever find it,” Nino said.
“Sorry Nino,” Jun repeated, looking down at his feet.
“And as for you,” Nino said, turning on a shame-faced Aiba. “I wasn’t kidding about what I said earlier. You won’t be able to hurt Jun ever again if you don’t have a dick. Got it?”
Even Sho and Ohno cringed at the menace in Nino’s voice as Aiba vigorously nodded his agreement.
“Don’t you two have anything to say on the subject?” Nino asked them crossly.
Neither Sho nor Ohno dared to speak. When Nino was in one of these moods it was all too easy to become collateral damage even if you’d done nothing wrong.
“Just remember you two,” Nino said, once again focussing his wrath on the main offenders. “All contact between you two will be supervised from now on until we are satisfied that you are able to be left alone together.”
“Right?” he asked glaring around the room at his bandmates.
Four heads nodded meekly in unison.
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Jun was happily placing dishes of food on the table when the doorbell rang. He smiled and hurried to let his guest in. Aiba was standing there with a bouquet of roses in one hand and a bottle of champagne in the other.
It had been almost five months since they had officially started dating. At first the other three hadn't allowed them to be alone and their dates had turned into group outings, but Nino had decided to relax his rules after making sure that Aiba's intentions were honourable.
After a few weeks of chaste kisses and hand holding, Jun had told Aiba that he was ready for more, but Aiba was scared that he might hurt him again, like he did that last time in the park. He had repeatedly told the older man that he had suffered no permanent trauma, but Aiba himself seemed to be suffering because of it. The threat from their other bandmates had not helped to put Aiba at ease either. One of them alone would be scary enough, but with the three of them watching their every move it was certainly not conducive to a romantic atmosphere.
After being around Aiba for that amount of time and not having sex, Jun was about ready to burst. Screw the niceties of formal dating; he wanted him inside of him as soon as possible.
Aiba barely made it in past the genkan before the flowers and champagne went flying as Jun flung himself on him. They both teetered across the room, Aiba landing on his back on the sofa as Jun tried to remove his clothes. Aiba knew that he would be in big trouble if he did something without the Chastity Squad's permission and he would quite like to keep all of his important bits still attached, but it was really quite hard to think with Jun sucking on his neck and rubbing himself up against him. He managed to retrieve his phone from his pocket and hit speed dial, knowing that Ohno and Nino were having dinner together that night.
It wasn't as if the other three had arbitrarily decided that they weren't allowed to have sex ever again. It was just that they had decided that Jun had to be the one to initiate it and he had to be completely sure when he did. They didn't want Jun to feel pressured into doing something he wasn't ready for.
So when Aiba rang them to get the go ahead they weren't sure what to say, but when he accidentally put his phone on speaker as he was flailing around and they could hear Jun at the other end obviously doing things to Aiba that no one could possibly be expected to resist, they decided that it was probably time to relax their rules. As soon as Aiba heard the words "Good luck!" he dropped the phone on the floor and took hold of Jun's wandering hands which were presently down the front of his jeans stroking his cock, which made making a rational decision very hard. "Stop!" he said, pulling Jun's hands away and sitting them both upright on the sofa.
Jun couldn't believe that Aiba didn't want him when it had been so long since they'd been intimate and his vision blurred as tears filled his eyes.
Seeing Jun's devastated expression Aiba hastened to explain himself.
"Please listen to me." he said, knowing that he hadn't made himself clear at all.
He stood up, lifting a very confused Jun off the sofa and carried him princess style to the bedroom, talking as he walked.
"If we are doing this tonight then we are going to do it properly. I'm taking you to the bed as you need to be perfectly comfortable because this is going to go very slowly. It's been a long time since we've been together so I will have to take my time getting reacquainted with each and every part of your body."
As he lowered Jun to the bed and slowly began removing his clothes, softly kissing each patch of his skin as it was gradually revealed he added "Because this isn't just sex, it's about making love, and this time I want this to be the perfect experience for you."
Jun felt tears once again welling in his eyes, but this time they were tears of happiness.
A/N: Not sure about this one. Sorry to all Aiba fans. *Runs and hides under rock*
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Date: 2017-03-24 09:58 am (UTC)Welllll.... To be honest, I wish I could have seen Ohno or Sho actually do something to Aiba because of how he hurt my Jun baby :((( I do love the whole Chastity Squad thing, but I agree that it's necessary.
At least Aiba's feeling sorry about the whole affair :<
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Date: 2017-03-24 10:11 am (UTC)I shouldn't post stuff when I've spent and hour and a half at the dentist 😷
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Date: 2017-03-24 10:13 am (UTC)You just got back from the dentist? D: *shudder*. Maybe a dentist!fic? :D
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Date: 2017-03-24 10:17 am (UTC)(Perhaps I need you to write me some Sakumoto smut to make me feel better??) You can find me under the rock.
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Date: 2017-03-24 11:45 am (UTC)!!!! You kneed him in the crotch (well, Ohno did, but technicalities) And Shooooo ahhh *melts*
Hooray. Sakumoto smutty smut smut will happen. Soon. LOL. I'll make sure to throw a pebble at your rock when it happens.
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Date: 2017-03-24 10:05 am (UTC)I would never ever forgive Aiba for doing this. I wouldn't need Nino to cut Aiba's dick off, I would do it on my own. Jun is really good hearted in this case, even though it was a one time mistake.
Thanks for sharing 💕
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Date: 2017-03-24 10:13 am (UTC)Thanks for reading.
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Date: 2017-03-24 11:31 am (UTC)Learn more about LiveJournal Ratings in FAQ (https://www.dreamwidth.org/support/faqbrowse?faqid=303).
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Date: 2017-03-24 03:29 pm (UTC)Well... hmm... I think I'm not so mad at Aiba because a) it was a one-time incident, and b) he seems to reeeeally regret it. Otherwise, I might be less forgiving (and I'd need the three big protective bros to kick his ass before thinking about forgiveness, LOL).
Aiba better not hurt Jun again >:(
Thanks for sharing this with us! ^^
And YAY! Sushi party, woooooooooooooot~! :D :D :D Let's start eating before Sho comes!!!
Wait... does your presence in the rock mean anything about upcoming chapters of your on-going fic???? Not that it'd be bad, I'm just super curious rn, lmao!
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Date: 2017-03-24 06:26 pm (UTC)This story is the reason why I am back under the rock but hey at least we got sushi...at least until Sho got home and the cold war started again. Please pass the pickled ginger.
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Date: 2017-03-25 03:39 am (UTC)that's the problem when they decided for no string attched-to with felings-but never talk out of it. What Aiba did definitely not right but I think I could understand Jun too. Somehow I love the mad, bossy Nino! He left Ohno and Sho who I honestly thought scarier than Nino speechless xD
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Date: 2017-03-25 03:47 am (UTC)Sho and Ohno are no match for a truly angry Nino. Although Ohno did take the opportunity for a little revenge.
Thank you for reading something that may not appeal to everyone.
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Date: 2017-03-25 08:55 am (UTC)perfect big brothers!! XD
but those two...
*sigh*
if they would have spoken to one another, it would never have happened. >.<
but i am really glad, that they are happy again now.
they deserve nothing less! ^^
thank you for sharing this story. ^^
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Date: 2017-03-25 09:12 am (UTC)Hopefully from now on things will be much happier for them,
Thanks for reading. 💕
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Date: 2017-03-25 02:46 pm (UTC)Thanks for sharing!!
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Date: 2017-03-26 09:28 am (UTC)This maybe wasn't a popular decision to post this and I am not completely happy with it....
Thanks for reading though 💕
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Date: 2017-03-25 05:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-03-25 09:46 pm (UTC)Thanks for reading.
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Date: 2017-03-31 04:54 pm (UTC)Jun has his own defense squad! Such protective older 'brothers' (esp Nino) They did the right thing though to make sure Jun is not hurting anymore
And since Aiba is remorseful (pats him for being jealous), it's no hard to forgive him
I've no problem reading this kind of fic (as you probably know) as long as things settled amicably in the end <3
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Date: 2017-03-31 08:55 pm (UTC)But it was Aiba's jealousy and confusion that led to the incident (and they had both previously enjoyed it rough like that before).
Unfortunately time things got badly out of hand. It was lucky that the other three were showing more sense than Junba themselves.
Thanks for reading.
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