A Lingering Doubt
Feb. 17th, 2017 07:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
learashiPairing: Sakumoto, Ohmiya (minor)
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, smut
Summary: Jun and Sho are finally together, but there's just one problem. Although they’ve been dating for almost three months, Jun steadfastly refuses to go any further than kissing and cuddling due to his insecurities about their relationship. Can Sho figure out how to solve this dilemma or will he have to resort to once again asking Ohmiya for help?
Note: Hello dear readers, this is a Valentine’s week smutty romantic bonus follow-up to A Small Truth for you. Are you ready for the sequel? Let’s all feel the love.
“So we both have the same two days off in a couple of weeks. I thought perhaps we could go away somewhere for the night,” Sho said as he attempted to cast a seductive glance in Jun’s direction.
Jun though, somehow managed to avoid Sho’s eyes and scuttled from the rehearsal room as if he had somewhere important to be. Which indeed he did; he needed to consult with Nino immediately.
Even though it was three months after the blow-up between him and Sho which had ended with them kissing in Nino’s bathroom that was as far as things had physically progressed between them. It wasn’t that he didn’t desire Sho; but he was frightened of giving too much of himself away, frightened of Sho changing his mind once again and breaking his heart in the process.
He had been using every excuse under the sun to avoid having sex with Sho, but he realized that it was becoming ridiculous. They loved each other and sex should have been the next logical step, but he just didn’t feel ready to say yes.
Nino was reluctant at first to help; it hadn’t been his idea to get them together in the first place. Ohno was the one who had persuaded him to not kill Sho, even though it had been very tempting at the time. He didn’t like the way Sho had played with Jun’s emotions, refusing him and then turning around and confessing his love for him. It had pleased him greatly that Jun hadn’t just immediately jumped into Sho’s bed without thinking things through first, so the idea of helping him to do so was something that didn’t sit well on his conscience. The sight of an embarrassed looking Sho passing Ohno a discreet package the day after had made his heart freeze. But it had begun to patter with joy when he realized that he was merely returning the unused condoms and lube. Not only was Jun’s virtue safe for the moment, but he had spent a delightful evening with Ohno using the supplies in a series of inventive ways.
“Nino, please?” Jun begged, his eyes large and pleading.
“Fine, drinks tonight. I’ll see if Ohno has any thoughts. He’s closer to Sho than I am,” Nino reluctantly agreed.
“Did you say drinks?” Aiba cut in.
Neither of them had noticed him walking up behind them.
“Yes, but Jun didn’t mean…” Nino began to say, trying to find a way to let Aiba down gently.
Jun knew that on top of everything else he couldn’t deal with a pouting Aiba right now so he cut Nino off and told Aiba that he’d text him the details later. He had learnt a long time ago that there was no such thing as a secret when it came to the five of them anyway.
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“Make sure you tell him that he shouldn’t feel pressured,” Nino said, poking Ohno in the side with a stumpy finger. “And also tell him that if it doesn’t feel right he can always say no, even if he goes with Sho on this weekend away. And tell him that he shouldn’t…”
“Nino!” Ohno said firmly, “Enough. Jun is an adult, as much as we all think of him as a baby. We can’t decide anything for him. I know you worry about him, but we have to leave it up to him.”
“But what if Sho hurts him again?”
Ohno took Nino’s jabbing hand and held it still, rubbing his fingers over it in a soothing pattern. “Sho loves him. We have to trust him to do the right thing. But if it makes you any happier I’ll see what Jun has to say tonight and then if I think it’s necessary I’ll have a quiet word with Sho. Okay?”
“Okay. But I still haven’t forgotten my threat to feed him his own dick if he does something stupid.” Nino muttered earning himself a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek for comfort.
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"What if I give myself to him fully and then he changes his mind? What if he suddenly decides that this is too difficult? If I'm too difficult?" Jun asked pathetically, shredding his drink coaster into tiny pieces.
"I'm sure that he wouldn't do that," Aiba slurred, patting Jun's head in an uncoordinated fashion.
"But what if he does? I don't think that I would survive," Jun continued softly.
"Well, he certainly wouldn't," growled Nino, earning a calming hug from Ohno.
"But that's why I'm holding this last part of myself back. That way when he changes his mind again and leaves me I will still have this tiny corner of me left untouched." The sadness in Jun's voice stung each of their hearts.
"Do you want me to talk to him?" Ohno offered, his jaw jutting firmly.
"No. I Iove you guys and appreciate how much you want to help, but this is something that I have to work out by myself," Jun replied with a sigh.
"We love you tooooo, Jun-chan," Aiba said as he hugged Jun tight enough to make his eyes bulge.
Nino and Ohno were forced to pry Aiba off Jun and nothing more was said on the subject for the rest of the evening.
Even so, despite what he said to Jun, Ohno felt that as part of his duties as Leader it was up to him to have a quiet word with Sho. He truly wanted his friends to find the same happiness that he shared with Nino and since Jun had been instrumental in bringing them together, he felt that he owed him to at least try.
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Ohno cleared his throat nervously as he asked, "So...um...how are things between you and Jun?"
Sho looked a little confused. "Fine, really," he answered, even though things weren't actually going all that well. Even though it was over three months since the great meltdown that brought them together things had progressed no further than kissing and the odd hug he was beginning to worry. “Well actually not so fine. I’m worried that Jun is falling out of love with me. It’s like he can’t even stand for me to touch him.”
This was one of the most awkward conversations they’d ever had together, a close runner-up to the time they’d both admitted to each other that they were gay.
“That’s not the reason why he is avoiding intimacy,” Ohno replied, closely examining his fingernails to avoid looking at his friend. “He’s scared that you are going to change your mind again and abandon him. That’s why he’s holding back. You need to prove to him that you are completely committed.”
“But I am. I really am,” Sho said. He didn’t even try and control the panic in his voice. It had taken him so long to finally admit his love for Jun; to lose him now was unthinkable.
Ohno finally looked directly at Sho. “Then prove it to him. Use this opportunity to put all of his fears to rest. He truly loves you; it’s just that he’s a little gun-shy after what happened between you earlier.”
“Thanks for telling me this. I think I can come up with something to fix things between us,” Sho replied, confident that he could find a way to convince Jun of his commitment.
His peace of mind was shattered mere seconds later as Oho quietly added, “Of course you do realize that Nino will stop at nothing if you don’t do this properly? And I won’t even try to stop him.”
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“Are you sure the driver knows where he’s going?” Jun asked as he tried to see through the fogged up window.
“Don’t worry I’ve been here before. The cabin is just a couple of kilometres up the road,” Sho replied confidently.
A few moments later that confidence evaporated as the car ground to a halt, unable to traverse the snowy road any longer. Faced with the choice to either turn back or continue on foot, Sho made the decision to walk.
Jun however was much less enthusiastic as he piled all of his bags into Sho’s arms before stomping angrily up the road ahead of his over-burdened boyfriend.
Sho soon found out that he’d greatly underestimated not only the distance to the cabin, but also how easy it would be to get there. Weighted down with all of their bags and also a box of food he was soon unable to keep up with Jun, who was rapidly becoming a small dot far up ahead in the distance.
It didn’t take long before disaster struck as Sho’s foot slipped on a patch of ice, sending him flying and distributing the luggage in a circle around him. “Juuuuuuun! I fell down,” Sho whined as he rolled around in the snow trying to right himself.
“Serves you right,” Jun called, halting only to turn and glare at his flailing boyfriend. “Most people go somewhere warm on romantic weekends.”
“But I want to snuggle with you in front of an open fire,” Sho replied with a pout as he tried to pick up the scattered bags. “I can’t do that somewhere tropical.”
Jun’s expression softened immediately. “You want to snuggle with me?”
“Of course baby. That’s the whole purpose of this weekend. I love you and want to spend time just with you holding you in my arms,” Sho said, happy to see Jun slowly gravitating back towards him.
“You really love me?” Jun asked. Even though Sho had spoken the words to him many times since they’d started dating he’d always feared that one day Sho wouldn’t say it any more.
“Matsumoto Jun I love you to the moon and back. And that’s exactly what I told my family just the other week.” Sho had guessed that one of the things making Jun hesitate was the worry about being accepted by Sho’s family.
“What did they say?”
“I think that they’ve finally come to terms with the fact that I will never marry a suitable woman and make babies with her. I wouldn’t say that they’re thrilled, but on the other hand they said that we’re welcome to come for dinner any time.” Sho had worked himself up for a big confrontation, which had not happened. His family had basically told him that his words didn’t exactly come as a big surprise. “My sister actually said that you’re too good for me.”
Jun felt the tension release slightly from his shoulders as he edged closer to Sho. “So you don’t regret getting together with me? You don’t want to change your mind?”
Sho dropped their baggage once again in favour of hugging Jun close to him. “Of course not; I’ve never been happier. My only regret is that I didn’t make my feelings known to you earlier.”
Jun sighed with relief before gripping Sho’s face and peppering it with a barrage of kisses. “Then let’s get to this cabin and commence with the snuggling.”
“Only snuggling?” Sho asked cheekily, pressing home his current advantage.
“For the start, but I might be amenable to something a bit more adventurous later this evening,” Jun replied coyly.
With a squeak of excitement, Sho hastily gathered up the bags and ploughed on towards the cabin, pushing a path through the snow so that Jun could follow with ease.
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Sho ran his fingers through Jun’s hair, lightly massaging his scalp as he did so. The effect on Jun was immediate, causing him to melt into a limp puddle on his lap, pressing his back against Sho’s chest.
The rug they were sitting on was soft and fluffy and the heat from the fire was making Jun's cheeks a rosy pink. He lifted Sho's hand and carefully placed a soft kiss on the bandage on his finger. Things hadn't entirely gone to plan when Sho tried to light the fire, and one singed finger later Jun took over and had it blazing brightly in no time.
Encouraged by Jun's action, Sho slid his fingers over Jun's arms, tracing the muscles with his fingertips. Jun hummed and leant even closer.
Sho nuzzled the side of Jun's neck, nipping lightly at the spot just below Jun's right ear before brushing his lips over the mole lower down towards his shoulder. He was being very careful to make sure that Jun was comfortable with each of his movements before escalating things.
Earlier over a simple dinner of cheese, crusty bread and red wine also eaten in front the fire, Jun had out of nowhere hesitantly confessed, “I want to…um…do…have…um…but I don’t know how…”
“Jun, what are you talking about?” Sho asked, putting his half-eaten wedge of cheese back down on his plate.
“I’ve never…you know...” Jun replied whilst making vague hand gestures.
“I still don’t have the faintest idea of what you’re talking about…” Sho replied in confusion.
Frustrated by Sho’s lack of understanding and his own shyness Jun burst out with, “SEX! I’m talking about sex! I haven’t done it before and I’m worried that I will do it wrong.”
Horrified at his confession, Jun tried to run away but Sho grabbed him before he could stand up. “You haven’t ever…?”
“No, because when I was sixteen I decided that I wanted you to be the one to…” Jun mumbled.
“Oh, baby, I’m so sorry. I didn’t even think…” Sho said as he cuddled Jun to his chest. This revelation made his rejection of Jun’s confession even worse. Guilt flooded through his body as he attempted to soothe Jun’s fears.
Sho was jerked back to the present as Jun wriggled around on his lap, turning around to face him so that their groins were pressed together. He mentally chastised himself for allowing his mind to wander at such a crucial time.
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Jun didn’t even recognise the filthy sounds leaking out of his mouth as Sho carefully added a third finger to the two that were thrusting into his body. As he’d expected it was slightly painful, but even more arousing than he’d ever imagined.
Sho stroked Jun’s side soothingly with his free hand, savouring the feel of the satin skin stretched over taut muscle as Jun writhed under his touch. Jun was just as responsive as he he’d guessed he would be, reacting with abandon to every caress and kiss.
“S-Sho…I,” Jun gasped.
“Baby, you have to tell me that you’re ready. I don’t want to hurt you,” Sho said as he licked his way up Jun’s body before capturing his lips, his hand continuing to work him open at the same time.
“P-please…I want you…I want to feel you inside me…” Jun was finding it hard to speak as ripples of pleasure spread through his body. “I’m ready.”
Sho continued kissing Jun and working his fingers, wanting to make absolutely sure that he was as well prepared as he could ever be.
When he was completely satisfied and Jun was practically begging him to begin, Sho grabbed one of the scatter cushions off the sofa and slid it under Jun’s buttocks, raising his hips up slightly off the floor, wanting to make Jun as comfortable as he could.
“Are you really sure?” Sho asked one final time as he picked up a condom.
“Yes, pleasepleaseplease,” Jun begged, jerking his hips up in desperation, trying to quell the relentless throbbing of his leaking cock. “But you don’t have to use that.”
“This?” Sho asked, holding up the condom. “Are you sure?”
“I’ve dreamt of this moment for six years and I want to experience as much of you as possible.”
“But baby, I don’t want to overwhelm you.” Sho was worried that it might be too much for Jun to handle emotionally. To be honest, he was scared as well; he had never had sex without using a condom before either and didn’t know how he would react either.
“I love you and trust you,” Jun replied, looking up at Sho with eyes glowing with love.
“I love you too,” Sho said, making up his mind and tossing the condom to one side.
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The flickering, ever-changing light from the fire illuminated their naked skin with a warm glow as they moved together on the soft rug. Soft sighs coming from Jun’s lips as Sho rested in place, his cock buried as deeply into Jun’s tight heat as possible.
Jun momentarily forgot to breathe as he adjusted to the strange and slightly burning sensation of being filled by Sho’s well-lubed cock. It wasn’t the most comfortable of sensations but his dream was finally coming true after so many years of pining and heartbreak.
Sho was careful to support his weight with his hands on either side of Jun’s head as he waited for Jun to relax. For some silly reason he felt tears pricking at the back of his eyes, which he tried to blink away, but Jun had already spotted them.
“Sho? Am I doing something wrong?” Jun asked in a small voice. “You’re crying.”
“No baby, you’re not doing anything wrong. It’s just that I feel so happy and complete; like I’ve found a part of me that I didn’t even know that was missing,” Sho replied blinking back his tears and smiling at Jun lovingly.
“Oh!” Jun said as a smile slowly blossomed on his face; Sho’s tears boosting his confidence. “So if I do this then it’s okay?” he asked as he moved his hips back and forth ever so slightly, unconsciously clenching tightly around Sho as he did so.
“Juuun,” Sho groaned. “I have to move now or you’re going to make me come before we’ve even started.”
Jun glowed with pride before gasping as Sho began to move his hips, slowly at first but gradually increasing the pace as he gauged Jun’s reaction. At first Sho was worried at the puzzled expression on Jun’s face, but that was soon dispelled as Jun began to rock back against his thrusts as he obviously lost his fear and began to feel more pleasure from their movements.
They continued kissing as their bodies rocked together, only breaking apart to gasp for air.
Jun lifted his legs, wrapping them firmly around Sho’s hips unconsciously opening up his body to allow Sho to press ever deeper.
“Shoooo,” Jun moaned, digging his nails into the sweaty skin of Sho’s back.
“I know baby,” Sho said. Instantly understanding what Jun was asking of him, Sho reached down between their bodies and gripped Jun’s cock firmly using the pearly liquid that was leaking from the tip to lubricate his movements as he slid his hand along its length.
“Sho…I can’t hold on,” Jun rasped as he felt his orgasm threatening to overwhelm him.
“In that case you can come for me now,” Sho said as he increased the frantic pace of his thrusts, jerking Jun’s cock at the same speed, he’d known from the beginning that Jun wouldn’t be able to last very long on this first occasion.
“Nghh, Sho!” Jun cried as his cum spurted between them as he clenched tightly around Sho’s thick cock.
“I love you so much baby,” Sho said as he continued to fuck hard into Jun, chasing his own release before finally coming in a series of hot spurts as he thrust in a deeply as possible into Jun’s shaking body before collapsing in an exhausted heap.
“Too heavy…can’t breathe,” complained Jun a second later.
“Sorry sweetheart,” Sho said as he levered himself up slightly.
Jun looked up at him with eyes wide with astonishment as he felt Sho’s cum slipping out around Sho’s softening cock and trickling down his buttocks.
“Are you all right” Sho asked as he brushed the sweaty hair back off Jun’s forehead.
“More than all right, it was everything I’ve imagined and more.”
“I didn’t freak you out by coming inside you?”
Jun shook his head, “It feels a bit odd, but in a good way.” He cupped Sho’s cheek with a trembling hand before pressing a feather light kiss to his plump lips. “And next time will be even better,” he added confidently.
“You’re already thinking about next time?” Sho asked as he carefully eased himself out of Jun’s body and flopped down on the rug beside him still trying to catch his breath and feeling dazed at the increased sensation he'd experienced by not using a condom.
“Of course, you know I like to keep working at something until it’s absolutely perfect,” Jun replied with a determined gleam in his eye, causing Sho to pale slightly as he wondered what he’d just gotten himself into.
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Snow was coming down heavily, creating a white curtain outside of the window as Sho snuck out of the bedroom. The owner of the cabin had earlier texted Sho to say that the roads were blocked and that it might take at least another day or two for the roads to clear.
He’d immediately contacted his Manager and informed him of the situation, asking that he rearrange his schedule and to contact Jun’s Manager to do the same. Fortunately there was nothing too vital coming up in the next few days that couldn’t be delayed.
There was another missed call and it was one that he didn’t look forward to returning. Taking a deep breath and moving far enough away so as to not disturb Jun who was still sleeping, Sho pressed the call button. “Nino?”
“Where are you? Where’s Jun? He was supposed to ring me when you were on your way home and I haven’t heard from him yet,” Nino ranted.
“We’re still at the cabin. Jun is still asleep. He hasn’t rung you because as you know by now, we are still here,” Sho replied, answering Nino’s questions in direct order.
“Why are you still there?”
“Because if you ever went outside you would see that it’s snowing. And here it’s snowing a lot, enough to block the roads anyway.”
“Great, so now you two idiots are stuck there? This is a disaster,” Nino grumbled.
Sho was unable to hide the glee in his voice as he answered, “Disaster? Conversely I think that this couldn't have happened at a better time."
Jun called out sleepily from the bedroom and Sho abruptly hung up on Nino. The lure of a cutely drowsy Jun all naked and compliant in the warm bed temporarily outweighed Sho's fear of offending Arashi's scariest member.
It was only when they were finally driving home two days later that Sho recalled what he'd done. His only chance of survival would be to use Jun as a human shield. Looking over at Jun sitting beside him looking so happy and relaxed he realized that there was no way he could do that to his lover.
As Sho prepared to face his fate he took comfort in the fact that at least he'd gotten a lot of use out of his dick over the last few days before they got back and Nino decided to relieve him of it.
Jun was fiddling with his phone as Sho drove, giggling suddenly. "Don't look so worried Sho, I've defused Nino for you. Your man parts are perfectly safe for the moment."
"You did? No wonder I love you so much," Sho exclaimed with relief.
"Don't get too complacent. He gave me a raincheck that I can use at any time," Jun replied with a cackle.
Sho joined in with a laugh of his own, this comfortable banter with someone who returned his love was something that he'd always yearned for and now that he had it even the threat of Nino wasn't enough to discourage him.
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Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, smut
Summary: Jun and Sho are finally together, but there's just one problem. Although they’ve been dating for almost three months, Jun steadfastly refuses to go any further than kissing and cuddling due to his insecurities about their relationship. Can Sho figure out how to solve this dilemma or will he have to resort to once again asking Ohmiya for help?
Note: Hello dear readers, this is a Valentine’s week smutty romantic bonus follow-up to A Small Truth for you. Are you ready for the sequel? Let’s all feel the love.
“So we both have the same two days off in a couple of weeks. I thought perhaps we could go away somewhere for the night,” Sho said as he attempted to cast a seductive glance in Jun’s direction.
Jun though, somehow managed to avoid Sho’s eyes and scuttled from the rehearsal room as if he had somewhere important to be. Which indeed he did; he needed to consult with Nino immediately.
Even though it was three months after the blow-up between him and Sho which had ended with them kissing in Nino’s bathroom that was as far as things had physically progressed between them. It wasn’t that he didn’t desire Sho; but he was frightened of giving too much of himself away, frightened of Sho changing his mind once again and breaking his heart in the process.
He had been using every excuse under the sun to avoid having sex with Sho, but he realized that it was becoming ridiculous. They loved each other and sex should have been the next logical step, but he just didn’t feel ready to say yes.
Nino was reluctant at first to help; it hadn’t been his idea to get them together in the first place. Ohno was the one who had persuaded him to not kill Sho, even though it had been very tempting at the time. He didn’t like the way Sho had played with Jun’s emotions, refusing him and then turning around and confessing his love for him. It had pleased him greatly that Jun hadn’t just immediately jumped into Sho’s bed without thinking things through first, so the idea of helping him to do so was something that didn’t sit well on his conscience. The sight of an embarrassed looking Sho passing Ohno a discreet package the day after had made his heart freeze. But it had begun to patter with joy when he realized that he was merely returning the unused condoms and lube. Not only was Jun’s virtue safe for the moment, but he had spent a delightful evening with Ohno using the supplies in a series of inventive ways.
“Nino, please?” Jun begged, his eyes large and pleading.
“Fine, drinks tonight. I’ll see if Ohno has any thoughts. He’s closer to Sho than I am,” Nino reluctantly agreed.
“Did you say drinks?” Aiba cut in.
Neither of them had noticed him walking up behind them.
“Yes, but Jun didn’t mean…” Nino began to say, trying to find a way to let Aiba down gently.
Jun knew that on top of everything else he couldn’t deal with a pouting Aiba right now so he cut Nino off and told Aiba that he’d text him the details later. He had learnt a long time ago that there was no such thing as a secret when it came to the five of them anyway.
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“Make sure you tell him that he shouldn’t feel pressured,” Nino said, poking Ohno in the side with a stumpy finger. “And also tell him that if it doesn’t feel right he can always say no, even if he goes with Sho on this weekend away. And tell him that he shouldn’t…”
“Nino!” Ohno said firmly, “Enough. Jun is an adult, as much as we all think of him as a baby. We can’t decide anything for him. I know you worry about him, but we have to leave it up to him.”
“But what if Sho hurts him again?”
Ohno took Nino’s jabbing hand and held it still, rubbing his fingers over it in a soothing pattern. “Sho loves him. We have to trust him to do the right thing. But if it makes you any happier I’ll see what Jun has to say tonight and then if I think it’s necessary I’ll have a quiet word with Sho. Okay?”
“Okay. But I still haven’t forgotten my threat to feed him his own dick if he does something stupid.” Nino muttered earning himself a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek for comfort.
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"What if I give myself to him fully and then he changes his mind? What if he suddenly decides that this is too difficult? If I'm too difficult?" Jun asked pathetically, shredding his drink coaster into tiny pieces.
"I'm sure that he wouldn't do that," Aiba slurred, patting Jun's head in an uncoordinated fashion.
"But what if he does? I don't think that I would survive," Jun continued softly.
"Well, he certainly wouldn't," growled Nino, earning a calming hug from Ohno.
"But that's why I'm holding this last part of myself back. That way when he changes his mind again and leaves me I will still have this tiny corner of me left untouched." The sadness in Jun's voice stung each of their hearts.
"Do you want me to talk to him?" Ohno offered, his jaw jutting firmly.
"No. I Iove you guys and appreciate how much you want to help, but this is something that I have to work out by myself," Jun replied with a sigh.
"We love you tooooo, Jun-chan," Aiba said as he hugged Jun tight enough to make his eyes bulge.
Nino and Ohno were forced to pry Aiba off Jun and nothing more was said on the subject for the rest of the evening.
Even so, despite what he said to Jun, Ohno felt that as part of his duties as Leader it was up to him to have a quiet word with Sho. He truly wanted his friends to find the same happiness that he shared with Nino and since Jun had been instrumental in bringing them together, he felt that he owed him to at least try.
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Ohno cleared his throat nervously as he asked, "So...um...how are things between you and Jun?"
Sho looked a little confused. "Fine, really," he answered, even though things weren't actually going all that well. Even though it was over three months since the great meltdown that brought them together things had progressed no further than kissing and the odd hug he was beginning to worry. “Well actually not so fine. I’m worried that Jun is falling out of love with me. It’s like he can’t even stand for me to touch him.”
This was one of the most awkward conversations they’d ever had together, a close runner-up to the time they’d both admitted to each other that they were gay.
“That’s not the reason why he is avoiding intimacy,” Ohno replied, closely examining his fingernails to avoid looking at his friend. “He’s scared that you are going to change your mind again and abandon him. That’s why he’s holding back. You need to prove to him that you are completely committed.”
“But I am. I really am,” Sho said. He didn’t even try and control the panic in his voice. It had taken him so long to finally admit his love for Jun; to lose him now was unthinkable.
Ohno finally looked directly at Sho. “Then prove it to him. Use this opportunity to put all of his fears to rest. He truly loves you; it’s just that he’s a little gun-shy after what happened between you earlier.”
“Thanks for telling me this. I think I can come up with something to fix things between us,” Sho replied, confident that he could find a way to convince Jun of his commitment.
His peace of mind was shattered mere seconds later as Oho quietly added, “Of course you do realize that Nino will stop at nothing if you don’t do this properly? And I won’t even try to stop him.”
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“Are you sure the driver knows where he’s going?” Jun asked as he tried to see through the fogged up window.
“Don’t worry I’ve been here before. The cabin is just a couple of kilometres up the road,” Sho replied confidently.
A few moments later that confidence evaporated as the car ground to a halt, unable to traverse the snowy road any longer. Faced with the choice to either turn back or continue on foot, Sho made the decision to walk.
Jun however was much less enthusiastic as he piled all of his bags into Sho’s arms before stomping angrily up the road ahead of his over-burdened boyfriend.
Sho soon found out that he’d greatly underestimated not only the distance to the cabin, but also how easy it would be to get there. Weighted down with all of their bags and also a box of food he was soon unable to keep up with Jun, who was rapidly becoming a small dot far up ahead in the distance.
It didn’t take long before disaster struck as Sho’s foot slipped on a patch of ice, sending him flying and distributing the luggage in a circle around him. “Juuuuuuun! I fell down,” Sho whined as he rolled around in the snow trying to right himself.
“Serves you right,” Jun called, halting only to turn and glare at his flailing boyfriend. “Most people go somewhere warm on romantic weekends.”
“But I want to snuggle with you in front of an open fire,” Sho replied with a pout as he tried to pick up the scattered bags. “I can’t do that somewhere tropical.”
Jun’s expression softened immediately. “You want to snuggle with me?”
“Of course baby. That’s the whole purpose of this weekend. I love you and want to spend time just with you holding you in my arms,” Sho said, happy to see Jun slowly gravitating back towards him.
“You really love me?” Jun asked. Even though Sho had spoken the words to him many times since they’d started dating he’d always feared that one day Sho wouldn’t say it any more.
“Matsumoto Jun I love you to the moon and back. And that’s exactly what I told my family just the other week.” Sho had guessed that one of the things making Jun hesitate was the worry about being accepted by Sho’s family.
“What did they say?”
“I think that they’ve finally come to terms with the fact that I will never marry a suitable woman and make babies with her. I wouldn’t say that they’re thrilled, but on the other hand they said that we’re welcome to come for dinner any time.” Sho had worked himself up for a big confrontation, which had not happened. His family had basically told him that his words didn’t exactly come as a big surprise. “My sister actually said that you’re too good for me.”
Jun felt the tension release slightly from his shoulders as he edged closer to Sho. “So you don’t regret getting together with me? You don’t want to change your mind?”
Sho dropped their baggage once again in favour of hugging Jun close to him. “Of course not; I’ve never been happier. My only regret is that I didn’t make my feelings known to you earlier.”
Jun sighed with relief before gripping Sho’s face and peppering it with a barrage of kisses. “Then let’s get to this cabin and commence with the snuggling.”
“Only snuggling?” Sho asked cheekily, pressing home his current advantage.
“For the start, but I might be amenable to something a bit more adventurous later this evening,” Jun replied coyly.
With a squeak of excitement, Sho hastily gathered up the bags and ploughed on towards the cabin, pushing a path through the snow so that Jun could follow with ease.
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Sho ran his fingers through Jun’s hair, lightly massaging his scalp as he did so. The effect on Jun was immediate, causing him to melt into a limp puddle on his lap, pressing his back against Sho’s chest.
The rug they were sitting on was soft and fluffy and the heat from the fire was making Jun's cheeks a rosy pink. He lifted Sho's hand and carefully placed a soft kiss on the bandage on his finger. Things hadn't entirely gone to plan when Sho tried to light the fire, and one singed finger later Jun took over and had it blazing brightly in no time.
Encouraged by Jun's action, Sho slid his fingers over Jun's arms, tracing the muscles with his fingertips. Jun hummed and leant even closer.
Sho nuzzled the side of Jun's neck, nipping lightly at the spot just below Jun's right ear before brushing his lips over the mole lower down towards his shoulder. He was being very careful to make sure that Jun was comfortable with each of his movements before escalating things.
Earlier over a simple dinner of cheese, crusty bread and red wine also eaten in front the fire, Jun had out of nowhere hesitantly confessed, “I want to…um…do…have…um…but I don’t know how…”
“Jun, what are you talking about?” Sho asked, putting his half-eaten wedge of cheese back down on his plate.
“I’ve never…you know...” Jun replied whilst making vague hand gestures.
“I still don’t have the faintest idea of what you’re talking about…” Sho replied in confusion.
Frustrated by Sho’s lack of understanding and his own shyness Jun burst out with, “SEX! I’m talking about sex! I haven’t done it before and I’m worried that I will do it wrong.”
Horrified at his confession, Jun tried to run away but Sho grabbed him before he could stand up. “You haven’t ever…?”
“No, because when I was sixteen I decided that I wanted you to be the one to…” Jun mumbled.
“Oh, baby, I’m so sorry. I didn’t even think…” Sho said as he cuddled Jun to his chest. This revelation made his rejection of Jun’s confession even worse. Guilt flooded through his body as he attempted to soothe Jun’s fears.
Sho was jerked back to the present as Jun wriggled around on his lap, turning around to face him so that their groins were pressed together. He mentally chastised himself for allowing his mind to wander at such a crucial time.
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Jun didn’t even recognise the filthy sounds leaking out of his mouth as Sho carefully added a third finger to the two that were thrusting into his body. As he’d expected it was slightly painful, but even more arousing than he’d ever imagined.
Sho stroked Jun’s side soothingly with his free hand, savouring the feel of the satin skin stretched over taut muscle as Jun writhed under his touch. Jun was just as responsive as he he’d guessed he would be, reacting with abandon to every caress and kiss.
“S-Sho…I,” Jun gasped.
“Baby, you have to tell me that you’re ready. I don’t want to hurt you,” Sho said as he licked his way up Jun’s body before capturing his lips, his hand continuing to work him open at the same time.
“P-please…I want you…I want to feel you inside me…” Jun was finding it hard to speak as ripples of pleasure spread through his body. “I’m ready.”
Sho continued kissing Jun and working his fingers, wanting to make absolutely sure that he was as well prepared as he could ever be.
When he was completely satisfied and Jun was practically begging him to begin, Sho grabbed one of the scatter cushions off the sofa and slid it under Jun’s buttocks, raising his hips up slightly off the floor, wanting to make Jun as comfortable as he could.
“Are you really sure?” Sho asked one final time as he picked up a condom.
“Yes, pleasepleaseplease,” Jun begged, jerking his hips up in desperation, trying to quell the relentless throbbing of his leaking cock. “But you don’t have to use that.”
“This?” Sho asked, holding up the condom. “Are you sure?”
“I’ve dreamt of this moment for six years and I want to experience as much of you as possible.”
“But baby, I don’t want to overwhelm you.” Sho was worried that it might be too much for Jun to handle emotionally. To be honest, he was scared as well; he had never had sex without using a condom before either and didn’t know how he would react either.
“I love you and trust you,” Jun replied, looking up at Sho with eyes glowing with love.
“I love you too,” Sho said, making up his mind and tossing the condom to one side.
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The flickering, ever-changing light from the fire illuminated their naked skin with a warm glow as they moved together on the soft rug. Soft sighs coming from Jun’s lips as Sho rested in place, his cock buried as deeply into Jun’s tight heat as possible.
Jun momentarily forgot to breathe as he adjusted to the strange and slightly burning sensation of being filled by Sho’s well-lubed cock. It wasn’t the most comfortable of sensations but his dream was finally coming true after so many years of pining and heartbreak.
Sho was careful to support his weight with his hands on either side of Jun’s head as he waited for Jun to relax. For some silly reason he felt tears pricking at the back of his eyes, which he tried to blink away, but Jun had already spotted them.
“Sho? Am I doing something wrong?” Jun asked in a small voice. “You’re crying.”
“No baby, you’re not doing anything wrong. It’s just that I feel so happy and complete; like I’ve found a part of me that I didn’t even know that was missing,” Sho replied blinking back his tears and smiling at Jun lovingly.
“Oh!” Jun said as a smile slowly blossomed on his face; Sho’s tears boosting his confidence. “So if I do this then it’s okay?” he asked as he moved his hips back and forth ever so slightly, unconsciously clenching tightly around Sho as he did so.
“Juuun,” Sho groaned. “I have to move now or you’re going to make me come before we’ve even started.”
Jun glowed with pride before gasping as Sho began to move his hips, slowly at first but gradually increasing the pace as he gauged Jun’s reaction. At first Sho was worried at the puzzled expression on Jun’s face, but that was soon dispelled as Jun began to rock back against his thrusts as he obviously lost his fear and began to feel more pleasure from their movements.
They continued kissing as their bodies rocked together, only breaking apart to gasp for air.
Jun lifted his legs, wrapping them firmly around Sho’s hips unconsciously opening up his body to allow Sho to press ever deeper.
“Shoooo,” Jun moaned, digging his nails into the sweaty skin of Sho’s back.
“I know baby,” Sho said. Instantly understanding what Jun was asking of him, Sho reached down between their bodies and gripped Jun’s cock firmly using the pearly liquid that was leaking from the tip to lubricate his movements as he slid his hand along its length.
“Sho…I can’t hold on,” Jun rasped as he felt his orgasm threatening to overwhelm him.
“In that case you can come for me now,” Sho said as he increased the frantic pace of his thrusts, jerking Jun’s cock at the same speed, he’d known from the beginning that Jun wouldn’t be able to last very long on this first occasion.
“Nghh, Sho!” Jun cried as his cum spurted between them as he clenched tightly around Sho’s thick cock.
“I love you so much baby,” Sho said as he continued to fuck hard into Jun, chasing his own release before finally coming in a series of hot spurts as he thrust in a deeply as possible into Jun’s shaking body before collapsing in an exhausted heap.
“Too heavy…can’t breathe,” complained Jun a second later.
“Sorry sweetheart,” Sho said as he levered himself up slightly.
Jun looked up at him with eyes wide with astonishment as he felt Sho’s cum slipping out around Sho’s softening cock and trickling down his buttocks.
“Are you all right” Sho asked as he brushed the sweaty hair back off Jun’s forehead.
“More than all right, it was everything I’ve imagined and more.”
“I didn’t freak you out by coming inside you?”
Jun shook his head, “It feels a bit odd, but in a good way.” He cupped Sho’s cheek with a trembling hand before pressing a feather light kiss to his plump lips. “And next time will be even better,” he added confidently.
“You’re already thinking about next time?” Sho asked as he carefully eased himself out of Jun’s body and flopped down on the rug beside him still trying to catch his breath and feeling dazed at the increased sensation he'd experienced by not using a condom.
“Of course, you know I like to keep working at something until it’s absolutely perfect,” Jun replied with a determined gleam in his eye, causing Sho to pale slightly as he wondered what he’d just gotten himself into.
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Snow was coming down heavily, creating a white curtain outside of the window as Sho snuck out of the bedroom. The owner of the cabin had earlier texted Sho to say that the roads were blocked and that it might take at least another day or two for the roads to clear.
He’d immediately contacted his Manager and informed him of the situation, asking that he rearrange his schedule and to contact Jun’s Manager to do the same. Fortunately there was nothing too vital coming up in the next few days that couldn’t be delayed.
There was another missed call and it was one that he didn’t look forward to returning. Taking a deep breath and moving far enough away so as to not disturb Jun who was still sleeping, Sho pressed the call button. “Nino?”
“Where are you? Where’s Jun? He was supposed to ring me when you were on your way home and I haven’t heard from him yet,” Nino ranted.
“We’re still at the cabin. Jun is still asleep. He hasn’t rung you because as you know by now, we are still here,” Sho replied, answering Nino’s questions in direct order.
“Why are you still there?”
“Because if you ever went outside you would see that it’s snowing. And here it’s snowing a lot, enough to block the roads anyway.”
“Great, so now you two idiots are stuck there? This is a disaster,” Nino grumbled.
Sho was unable to hide the glee in his voice as he answered, “Disaster? Conversely I think that this couldn't have happened at a better time."
Jun called out sleepily from the bedroom and Sho abruptly hung up on Nino. The lure of a cutely drowsy Jun all naked and compliant in the warm bed temporarily outweighed Sho's fear of offending Arashi's scariest member.
It was only when they were finally driving home two days later that Sho recalled what he'd done. His only chance of survival would be to use Jun as a human shield. Looking over at Jun sitting beside him looking so happy and relaxed he realized that there was no way he could do that to his lover.
As Sho prepared to face his fate he took comfort in the fact that at least he'd gotten a lot of use out of his dick over the last few days before they got back and Nino decided to relieve him of it.
Jun was fiddling with his phone as Sho drove, giggling suddenly. "Don't look so worried Sho, I've defused Nino for you. Your man parts are perfectly safe for the moment."
"You did? No wonder I love you so much," Sho exclaimed with relief.
"Don't get too complacent. He gave me a raincheck that I can use at any time," Jun replied with a cackle.
Sho joined in with a laugh of his own, this comfortable banter with someone who returned his love was something that he'd always yearned for and now that he had it even the threat of Nino wasn't enough to discourage him.
More notes: Sorry to keep you, but I just want say a big thank you to everyone for the nominations over at the Arashi Fan fictions Awards
arafanficawardYou guys make me feel all fuzzy inside and inspired to continue writing. *hugs*
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Date: 2017-02-17 09:54 am (UTC)They are really cute together, and finally they make the last step to complete their love ❤❤❤ Being stuck is the perfect way for some rest *lol*
Ohhhh poor Aiba, no one wants him to join? I really don't like the others for thinking like this!!
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Date: 2017-02-17 10:02 am (UTC)Let me see what I wrote.
Um, I just read that bit and realized that it came off as more than a little mean. So I have edited it.
Thanks for pointing it out to me. *grovels*
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Date: 2017-02-17 11:26 am (UTC)Learn more about LiveJournal Ratings in FAQ (https://www.dreamwidth.org/support/faqbrowse?faqid=303).
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Date: 2017-02-17 11:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-17 11:48 am (UTC)Protective Nino is all powerful.
Thanks for reading ❤
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Date: 2017-02-19 02:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-20 03:43 am (UTC)Jun still has that raincheck from Nino to use...
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Date: 2017-02-17 01:28 pm (UTC)Awwww I love insecure!Jun. And protective!Nino. Aaaaahhh you write really well by the way just thought I should tell you again :3 have I ever told you that?
Also, you deserve being on the fanfic awards list. You definitely do. Anyway.
Virgin!Jun. You are out to kill my heart, I swear to god. My heart cannot take this sweetness. <3 thank you for giving my friday a lovely ending :3
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Date: 2017-02-17 09:25 pm (UTC)Epilogue soooon?I don't know how Virgin!Jun came about. It's just seemed that Jun was so infatuated with Sho from such a young age that he would always hope for Sho to be his first. Of course six years was probably much longer than he thought he'd ever have to wait. (And Sho obviously didn't. Bad Sho.)
Ah Nino, so much personality in such a tiny package. I think that Jun is going to make all he can out of that raincheck ☺
*hugs*
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Date: 2017-02-17 10:52 pm (UTC)Sick!Fic fluff first; week has been busybusy; brain's not functioning enough for epilogue.*Hugs back*
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Date: 2017-02-17 01:41 pm (UTC)Awwww Jun had been preserving himself for Sho all this while, I find that so sweet. Sho you better treat Jun the way Jun deserve.
I love it too how Sho is soo afraid of Nino (such a cute little lion we got here XD)
Also congrats on being nominated! You deserve it <3
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Date: 2017-02-17 09:28 pm (UTC)I think that Sho truly does know that after the way he has treated Jun in the past he is very lucky indeed to have him now.
He will do his best to make Jun feel loved and special (or else he will have Ohmiya to answer to).
Thanks dear 💜💜
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Date: 2017-02-17 02:57 pm (UTC)kyaaaaaa virgin babyjun awwe so adorable Sis thank you 🌸💜🌸💜🌸💜
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Date: 2017-02-17 09:29 pm (UTC)*mwah*
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Date: 2017-02-17 11:07 pm (UTC)This was cute :3
"Don't get too complacent. He gave me a raincheck that I can use at any time." XD
Thanks for sharing this with us ^^
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Date: 2017-02-18 01:08 am (UTC)Thanks for reading ths one 💜💜
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Date: 2017-02-19 06:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-19 07:32 am (UTC)Thanks for reading. 💜❤
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Date: 2017-02-19 02:29 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for this <3
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Date: 2017-02-20 12:39 am (UTC)They do seem a bit doomed to awkward situations - first the toilet and then having to trudge through the snow (which ended up being a winning situation for them both).
They still seem to have communication problems (since Sho didn't even know that Jun was a virgin), but hopefully they are on the right path now.
Thanks for always reading 💜💜
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Date: 2017-02-20 05:41 pm (UTC)And then everything was just fluffy, so I forgive him. (I feel like Nino in this fic xD)
(Is this turning into a series? Because I like that *coughs*)
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Date: 2017-02-20 08:01 pm (UTC)I think we are all happy that Nino is in charge of Jun's well-being. (There is still that rain check up for grabs.)
I kind of think that I still have to write some more of this (if I can find the time ☺)
Thanks for reading ❤💜